Carleen,
Telling you that it has been a little over 4 months for me and I am totally lost and hurting won't help, but it's very true. I loved my husband for 36 years and I was blessed with that time. I can only try to imagine how you must feel cheated to have lost Keith so young. Carleen, people tell me that there is a reason for the way things happen and we may not know at the moment what it is, but we will know. The only thing that is getting me through this is to believe that there is a God and he is a loving God. We need him Carleen and I believe with all my heart that Keith and Mike are with him. They are no longer suffering and we should feel happy for them. We are left behind to pick up the pieces and I think we should all pool our knowledge, our strength and hearts to help each other through this. We have a lot of widows and widowers on this site who have to learn how to function as one . I just know there are a lot of loving arms and lots of support for all of us. I , like you still need practical information as to how I am going to function financially. I haven't worked for 36 years and now I find myself with no income. No, we won't get our husband's social security, not now. So many things causing panic and anxiety , but we will make it Colleen, I know we will. I will be praying for you. PM me if you would just like to write or if you have a question I can try to answer from the knowledge I have gained so far. This is so new for you. Allow yourself to grieve. God be with you.
Love,
Sue