Patkid Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 I miss Brian till I can't even tell you about it. I just wanted to tell you that. There are so many of us that have lost our counterparts ........... I just can't stand it and I want each of you to know how much I care and how much I ache for us. Brian died on the first day of the first month of the new year. It marked my first day being alone and on my own. Every first that comes along is like a stab of pain. First of Feb First of March First of the week First Sunday of Lent First time I do things he alway did.......... on and on and on. the worst part is that the first is just the first of many. I have come to hate the word first. Isn't that silly? But it is true. Brian, I love you so much and I can not imagine how this will ever ease...........I trust it will, but I can not imagine feeling less sad. P Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tami Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 (((((Pat))))) Many hugs to you dear... I know how difficult it is to deal with the "firsts". You continue to be in my prayers. Tami Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 I don't know what to say, except that I understand. I am praying for you Pat, whether you know it or not. This is so hard. Don't doubt how you feel. Feel it. Love, Lori Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
flwrjunke Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 Pat, I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. I can only imagine. I'm praying for you and that with time these feelings will get easier. Patty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bunny Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 (((((pat))))) there's just nothing to say. so we're hugging and kissing you instead. xoxo amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patty Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 ((((((Pat)))))) Wish there was more I could say to you to help. Prayers, Patty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melindasue37 Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 Pat, I too wish there was something to take away the pain of missing Brian and having all these "firsts" to go through. We are here for you, you are never truly alone because we all love you and care so, so much about your feelings. Just continue to trust in God....he will carry you through these difficult days and we'll do all we can help to get you through them too. Sending hugs and love, Melinda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
michelepal Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 (((Pat))) I'm so sorry! Love Michele Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SBeth Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 Brian misses you too Pat. {{{{{Pat}}}}} Love to you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 Pat--Just want to say my thoughts and prayers are with you. Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 I know how you feel I hate the 23rd of each month. Love and prayers we will survive as the song says Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shirleyb Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 Pat, I can remember feeling just as you do right now. All I can say is it takes time. Losing what feels like half your soul is not something you will get over in just a few moments. It takes time. You are in my thoughts and prayers that God will hold you close and give you comfort. Shirleyb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 I'm so sorry, Pat. I have no words to ease the pain, except that I know how much it hurts. So much caring for you . . . . . Love, Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J.C. Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 Pat, Sorry I don't know how to help you with the pain you have. I just know what I did with the pain when Mike died. I wanted him to be proud of me like when he was alive and for that I had to be strong and be able to still smile and welcome each day as a gift from God. So I kept busy nearly day and night making earrings, knitting blankets and funny wigs till sleep came. I kept busy going out to he same places we went when he was alive, I wanted to be able to face life alone, because he would never have left me if the cancer had not taken him first. I did the volunteer work that we both wanted to do but that he was too weak to do alone. I just kept going for him, missing him but finding him in what I was doing each day to keep sane. I finished many of the tasks he had started and had to leave undone. And I keep him alive in my mind and he keeps me going day by day. Pat you will find your way, give yourself time, make sure that you accept to be the one left alive to carry on what you started together. Hugs Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MilliBr1 Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 Pat you are in my thoughts and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gerbil runner Posted March 8, 2006 Share Posted March 8, 2006 I'm so sorry your pain is still so intense. I know what you mean - some days I just want to sit and howl in pain. It WILL get less painful with time. Keeping you in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted March 18, 2006 Share Posted March 18, 2006 Hey there, Pat, Come back and talk to us, sweetie. I know you're hurting. Come back and talk it out some more. Get it out. It hurts to get it out, but so does merthiolate (remember that stuff?). Ouch! It hurt so bad to put it on, but felt so much better because it healed the wound. Love you! Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JimW Posted March 21, 2006 Share Posted March 21, 2006 I'm so sorry - and I understand. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Jim Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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