ursol Posted April 9, 2007 Share Posted April 9, 2007 I just spent the Easter holiday with my side of the family this afternoon. All 29 of us (11 screaming kids). It was no different than in past years and I fairly enjoyed myself I guess. Holidays are not the same since my diagnosis. I unfortunately cannot make peace with my wig, so it causes me so much discomfort when I don't feel pretty anymore and don't want people to see me. Then there is the usual questions about how I feel? am I in treatment? The worst of it was when my cousin that came up from Virgina asked specific questions about my previous brain lesions because she had a pharmacist friend read my e-mail I had sent months earlier and he told her how serious my condition was. she also said she expected to find me much thinner from all my treatments. (I'm still the same weight after the baby which is 20lbs overweight). I felt as though she wanted to say she expected to find me half dead. I just wanted to scream right there!!! Then I went to my inlaws (mother and father in law and sister inlaw, her husband and kids all live together). Well, I didn't want to go because my mother in law had the flu and only got out of bed today. My WBC is low and I thought it was dangerous for me if my kids or I caught it. Well my husband said he wouldn't let them touch the kids etc. Anyhow, that didn't work because my ignorant inlaws breathed all over my 16 month old especially my mother in law. If I get the flu I will end up hospitalized like the last time. Not sure if anyone has ever felt some people can't wait for you to lose your battle with this disease, but that is how I feel sometimes. My favorite quote from Junior high days: The world is full of Queens and Kings who blind your eyes and steal your dreams, its Heaven and Hell. I hope everyone had a better Easter than I. Tomorrow back to work, Tuesday back to Chemo. Lilly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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