alyssa0323 Posted March 18, 2009 Share Posted March 18, 2009 The 17th of every month marks my moms passing, which is also sad because it also marks my daughters monthly birthdays ! (she is only 9months old right now) So you see its bittersweet for me. It's been a month now that I have lost my mom to this disease and to be honest, I am mad as hell still. I cant stop thinking of her and missing her every day. I am mad that my daughter wont have the opportunity to meet her wonderful grandmother. I am mad that she only had TWO months to try to fight this cancer. I told myself I wouldn't come back to this site because it's just too painful, but in all honesty, other than my family, its the only place where people understand my pain. During this very long month, I believe I was given a sign.. (or possibly I am turning everything into one in hopes that she is trying to let me know she is okay??) I was feeding my daughter breakfast and heard a tapping at my front door. I opened the door only to see a beautiful red cardinal sitting on the carport. It just stayed there for a minute and then flew off into the trees. This bird was significant to me because as a child, I grew up on Cardinal Dr with my mom. I immediately thought of my mom and the good times. I called my sister and told her about what I saw and she started crying on the phone. She told me that the night before she looked out her window and saw a cardinal just staring in. I want so desperately to believe it was a sign from up above that my mom is watching over us still...... I am holding onto this with all I have... Again, I cant tell you enough how glad I am that I found this site. It makes me feel better to talk to people who can relate to what I am going through! xo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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