Hi Trudy, welcome to our world, it will get easier, I too take zoloft have been on it for over 10 years for depression and PMDD, it does help but I did find I needed additional help with my recurrence so my pcp prescribed Klonpin which has help alot, without out it I found myself at a pity party nearly everyday. You will find each week is a bit better, I too am stage IIIB with the recurrence. Went for a CT scan this morning now doing the Www Waiting wondering watching game. We are here whenever you need us, there is always someone on this site night and day. I have trouble sleeping at times and find myself looking for posts up in the late hours. Prayers that you find some peace soon.,,,