I love you Carleen. I am praying for both of you and Kieth. I know exactly what you are feeling. I never cried infront of my husband in the past 16 months, but on his last day on earth, when he was still alert and coherent, I screamed so loud infront of him at the hospital and he hugged me and said baby I am not going anywhere so hush hush. I'm not sure If I am helpful to you, but just want you to know, I know the pain and God will carry you through this.
Much love and blessings to you both.
Love,
Malou