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Prayers coming Addie! Denise

Welcome back Joe! And congrats to you and Gina on the new house, it is beautiful! How are you feeling these days? Denise

Shelly, Congrats and good luck with the move! Tell your sis we are praying for her. Denise

So happy to hear this good news Fay. Continued prayers for a speedy recovery. Denise

Congrats to everyone! Andrea, why didn't you let me know this good news!?!? I have lost 10 pounds to date, 30 to go! denise

Hi, What you are feeling is totally normal. I think it takes awhile for everything to sink in. I thought I was ok the first month, now looking back I realize I was just in shock. The next few months will be difficult, but you will be ok. I try to remember the good times with my mom and that she is no longer suffering. If you ever need to talk, please feel free to send me a PM. I know all too well what you are going through. Love, Denise

What fantastic news! Denise

If anyone speaks/e-mails to Melinda and Geoff, please let them know I am trying to get in touch with them. I saw Melinda on here this morning, but she has taken a hall pass and I am afraid she won't be back for a while. Melinda/Geoff, if you see this, please e-mail me. I have been thinking about you both, was thinking maybe we could meet up? My e-mail is niececola@yahoo.co.uk. Hope to hear from you soon. Denise

Hi Steph, So good to see your smiling face! Hope you are well and enjoying Denmark! Love, Denise

Hi Cindy! So happy to hear this great news! denise

Hi Shellie, So sorry to hear this, prayers being said right now. Denise

Hi Andrea, Don't panic, ok? Sending prayers right now, let us know how you make out. Love, Denise

Dear Fay, Prayers coming! Please let us know how he makes out. Love, Denise

I am so sorry...

Thanks MJ for sharing such a sweet story with us. You are a wonderful daughter. Denise

hi shelley, I am so sorry, I miss those calls too...

hi, I have been away for a while, always reading, but never really knowing what to say. But, I had a wonderful experience last week, so I thought I would share it with you all. I spent last week in London, was supposed to be there in September, but things happened, so I postponed my trip to last week. Very surreal, funny, using that word a lot these days. Very sad leaving NY because my mom was not around to call and give my flight details to or to talk about my trip. Once I arrived in London, was busy catching up with friends, but kept thinking my mom was home, waiting for me to return. It is amazing how the mind works. I did have a very nice week, but the minute I got on my return flight, the tears starting flowing, I was anxious and just wanted to stay for a few more days. But, reality came screeching back very quickly when I saw my Dad, and he is of course, still sad and lost. So, I am thankful for the break, but just wish I could disappear for a while, but that is pretty unrealistic and would only delay my healing. OK, so the wonderful experience was this. My mom's three-month anniversary was the 28th. That evening my friend awoke, suffering from a diabetic attack. He was fine, but we stayed up a while and then I remember the dream I had.... My mom and I were in Australia on holiday. I decided I wanted to stay longer and asked her if it was ok that I stayed for a couple of more weeks. She said fine and walked off. Next thing I know the weather turned violent, the sea was churning, the wind was picking up. I started to panic and worried that my mom would not be ok. I started to cry and out of nowhere, a man showed up. I told him I was worried my mom would not be ok without me, she needed me and I wanted to take care of her. He gave me this sweet, "all-knowing" smile, as if he understood because he had heard this concern so many times before. He called me into his "office", which was a glass room in the middle of the beach. I told him how worried I was and he told me there was no need to worry, my mom was fine, just look around. And when I did, the sun was shining gloriously, the birds were chirping and there were children playing and laughing. And then I knew, she was ok. I know she is with God, but I have been suffering terribly these past few weeks with guilt that she suffered emotionally in the end and I could not help her. I have thanked God over and over again for this wonderful sign. When I am sad, I am going try and remember how peaceful I felt when I knew she was ok. I know the day will come when I am better than I am today, but it will take time, but it will happen. Thanks for letting me share this story with you. Praying for us all. Denise

(((MJ))) I am so sorry for your great loss. If you ever need to talk, please let me know. Love, Denise

Hi Leah, Welcome to our group. I am so sorry to hear about your mom's passing. My mom died on August 28th of this year and it is really hitting me now that I will never see her again. And the pain is unbearable and it does comes out of nowhere. I have a hard time talking to my dad or brother, b/c it is just too painful to hear the sadness in their voice. I just want the next year to be over, dreading the holidays and my upcoming birthday. I keep telling myself it will get better one day, but I think I now know what people mean when they say they never really get over it. For a while I thought I was ok and feeling very guilty about that. That feeling did not last for long. Please come here often, there are a lot of wonderful and caring people in the same horrible position we are. Denise

Dear Geoff and Melinda, I am so sorry to hear of your great loss. Love, Denise

Karen, I am so sorry for your loss. Love, Denise

Hi Susan, From what you have described, yes, it sounds like the cancer is back. And that is the horrible part of this wretched disease, it can return without warning. But it does not mean your mother does not have options, there are many treatments out there, should your mom choose to pursue them further. If your mom is open to your help, try to find out as much as you can about her case, go with her to doctors visits if possible, do some research here and on the web. Be as supportive as you can, but please take care of yourself, being a caregiver to a sick parent is a very special job and difficult to do at times. My mom smoked too, and it sucks, b/c that most certainly contributed to her LC. But there is nothing you can do about it now and trust me, you do not want to live with the anger and bitterness, so if you can, find a way to let it go and love your mom and support her the best way you know how. All the best, Denise

No explanations needed Rick! But I totally agree with Andrea, the Boston fans are harsh and rude. Although the Yankee fans throwing baseballs on the field last night was not very cool. I hate to see what is going to happen in the Bronx tonight when the Yankees lose, yes, you heard me right, I have given up hope at this point...

OK, I am still at work, "watching" the Yankees get slaughtered on MLB.com.... It is not a good night in NYC!!

and this sucks! I miss my mom, she should be here with us. She was way too young and we will be forever lost without her. Denise