Caren

I would like to thank everyone for their continued support (((HUGS))) I tried to talk with my dad yesterday, but he won't accept the fact that he's feeling down and really doesn't want me to seek any help with this. I feel that if I do speak to the GP on his behalf and this is mentioned to my dad, then the already tense atmosphere will only get worse for us. I am going to just try my hardest to keep his spirits up and see how that goes.

I am glad that Jacob's surgery was a success. I will keep you all in my thoughts while he is having all of his tests done too!!! Do you know the saying 'The best presents always come in small packages'

Things are very hard for us at the moment. I am sure that my dad is suffering depression and I have spoken to him about this and offered to seek help from a counselor, but he's not interested in doing this. I have offered to set up a one day a week trip to Hospice, so that he can get to socialise and have some fun (I have been told by a friend who's husband used the Hospice day centre that he really enjoyed it), but again, he's not interested. I have spoken to him about pain, as I thought that maybe he's in more pain than he's letting on, but he assures me that the pain is under control. What worries me the most is that he has started showing signs of confusion again. This was one of the first symptoms of his last infection (and 5 day stay in hospital). He has also been coughing a lot more than usual. I have commented on the coughing and said that we should maybe take him to see the GP today, just to have a check up. But again, he's not interested. I don't know what to do, how to feel, or where to turn for support.....I'm lost and I feel that I'm losing my dad before he's gone

The day that my dad decided to end his treatments the Oncologist obviously wasn't impressed, but you know, it's my dad's decision and it should be respected by everyone involved. After he told us that he wanted to see my dad in two weeks (he told the Keyworker to make the appointment), she said that she would call in a couple of days to be sure that my dad has settled back in at home ok. He's been home for just over a week and not one phone call!! All he has had from them is his appointment confirmation. It just feels that since he made that decision there is no care for his welfare and that they were only interested in him when they were pumping Chemo into his system. I don't know if I'm paranoid, as I am feeling very low right now, but I don't think it fair that they haven't called to check on him

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way (((Shrimp)) .....My heart goes out to you!

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Cute little sandals, but they took one look at my feet and said......

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FFA (Foot Fetish Assosiation), to which she replied.....

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Oh Shrimp (((HUGS))) Thanks so much for thinking of me when you must still be hurting so badly! The only questions that I have in my head are ones that I don't think anybody will be able to give answers to and so I don't ask them.

The dog was trying to get up between us and lick dad's chin.....

Glad to know that Patti is ok!!!!

I just took this photo and thought I would share.

I can't work it out in KW. But we just got a bill in for the last 5 months worth and it works out to £50-$100 Per month.

Although my dad is feeling much better and able to come home tomorrow He has decided that he doesn't want to continue with treatment I thought that he might make this choice and as he daughter I will stand by his decision, although it hurts me to do so.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Thanks again everyone I have been in to see him today and I think that I had set myself up for a fall. I didn't expect him to be up doing a dance or anything, but I did expect to find him much better than I had left him yesterday, when in fact he is worse His temp is back up and he's very lethargic. The nurse said that she has requested that the doctor come by to see him again this evening.

Cooler evenings.

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Evening all. Well it's been raining for most of the day today. I have done a little housework, been food shopping and then went to the hospital to visit with my dad, before collecting the children from School.