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Count me in here! I wish I had your strength Pat,how do you do it! Paddy

I'm going to leave big notices to myself all over the house so I will remember to watch. Paddy

How nice that your Mum has you in her corner Linda! Paddy

So very sad for you and your family, Paddy

I must say I do wonder Lily, as, I too have had many friends and relatives diagnozed recently. What worries me though is that more and more young people seem to be getting this disease. Paddy

So sorry Pat. Your quote is so true. Paddy

I remember when ,If you heard someone next to you in the supermarket say "Hello" they were usually greeting you! Paddy

Oh My Goodness Tami! How can you not be depressed! The situation you are in is enough to floor anyone. Pease don't beat yourself up about that! My heart goes out to you and I am praying for you and for your family with all my heart. Talk to the people on this board who are going through the same thing as you . I am sure they will help and you will find courage begin to fight again. My heart goes out to you and I am praying for you and for your family with all my heart. Paddy

Yes, I was always uncomfortable although compassionate. Now I have no problem,( other than feeling sad) talking about cancer, or, talking to people who have cancer . More importantly though I have learned to just listen. Paddy

So very sorry. Paddy

Thanks Lily! This afternoon I was missing my David so much and feeling so alone, so tried to do all the things one is supposed to do to "get out of it" to no avail. Ended up by having a racking sobbing fit and then coming to the board to be with folks who I felt were probably feeling just like me or worse. Next thing is Lily has me running down to the basement to find out the name of the author of my second favorite novel! Thanks you Guys for being here! My first favorite is, Yes, "To Kill a Mockingbird," and second on my list comes "The Jewel In The Crown" by "Paul Scott". It's about the turbulence of India in 1942. The book is split into four parts, it's a bit of a tome and takes some getting into, however, once in I was hooked. They did a series on PBS too, it was terrific! Another good, short and very easy-to-read novel is "The Christmas Train", (sorry I can't remember the authors name.) Paddy

Love it ! I was sad to see Tatum go as she was miles better than Master P and was really trying too! I have always loved ballroom and wish I was young enough to go for it again. Paddy

So very sad to hear of Addie's passing.I remember how she used to make me laugh with her great posts. My condolences to her family. Paddy

Pam, All I can say is this, listen to Joel and hear what he is saying. If you have a "gut feeling" as you say, act upon on it. My heart goes out to you, and you and Joel will be in my thoughts and prayers. Paddy

Fay, I think of you often and will do so especially in the coming days. You have so much courage and have been though so much, I know you are going to come out of this too. Paddy

So very sorry Beth. Paddy

I'm with Fay A here, the nurse and the onc are the ones who should be ashamed of their insensetivity. You were probably releasing some of the strain of the last few months as well as showing your sadness about your Mom. Don't give it another moments thought. Paddy

The very Best of luck too you and Keith Carleen, you will be in my thoughts and prayers, Paddy

Glad about the "no progression" part Don, but sad to hear that Lucie has to go through chemo , (and all that goes with it,)again. Lets hope it does the trick this time. You two are always in my thoughts even though I don't get to the board very often these days. Paddy

Glad about the "no progression" part Don, but sad to hear that Lucy has to go through chemo , (and all that goes with it,)again. Lets hope it does the trick this time. You two are always in my thoughts even though I don't get to the board very often these days. Paddy

Great to hear such wonderful news Joanie!! I always enoy reading posts like this! Paddy

I have only just seen your very sad post Pat. I have a very heavy heart and can only pray for your peace and comfort. Paddy

Dear Carleen, My heart aches for you and Keith. It seems though that some of us have no choice but to walk the path we have been given. I too have found that to express your grief and anger is a good thing as it helps to build you up for the next fight. I still do it, but not quite so often. I will allow myself a ranting, crying session in the shower, (so's the neighbors can't hear,) and then I can get on with what I have to do. Life is definately not fair my Dear and the fact that you are so young makes this even worse for you. Prayers and positive thoughts are on there way to you and Keith. Love, Paddy.

Hello All, I have been away for some time, but have had you all in my thoughts and prayers. Bet Ya didn't even notice I was gone! It was so very sad to hear of the loss of our Dear friends Dean and Beth/"Just a kid" while I have been away. God Bless them both and their families. I have bought a condo in Michigan where I am settling down very well after a traumatic move from CA, (to say the least.) The condo is very pretty, light and airy and has everything I need to be comfortable. It even has a pond stocked with bass and sports Canada Geese and egrets! I am also a ten minute drive away from my daughter Karen, and her family which is great. So you see I have so much to be grateful for and he only thing that makes me sad is that David is not here to enjoy it with me. I will not be posting too often as there is still much to do here, however I am at least "on board" again. Love to you all, Paddy. PS. How do you spell geese?!We need a spell-check here!

Hello Peggy, I am back on line again at last! My thoughts and prayers have been with you and all our friends while I have been away. I want you to know how sorry I am for your pain. I wish I could do something to help. I used to think exactly as you and it caused me so much pain, however, lately I have realized that even if I did know the answer to all those questions it can't help Dave now, and certainly would only cause me more anguish. I try not to re-live all the awful stuff,( although I often lapse,) and try to think of the happy times. At first I couldn't do that but now they are coming back to me. Although Dave and I obviouslly knew that it was a definate possibility that he would die, I don't think either of us accepted or believed such a horrible thing could happen ever really to "us". As a result of his up-bringing David always found it difficult to express emotion. He would always say "We haven't been married for 40 years "not" to know exactly what is in each other's hearts. I understood that, but still,I would have liked to have heard him say "I love you" more often, instead of answering me with an, "I love you too" or a "like-wise". Why did I expect that would change at the end. When I was sitting stroking his arm just before he died, (I couldn't get closer because of all the tubes etc,) I told him how very much I loved him and how much I would miss him,and, looking at me with his soft, hurt, brown eyes he said, "Like-wise" and went back to sleep. He died an hour or so later from a heart attack. I smile now when I think of that because it was so "him"! Peggy, I will PM you soon. Love, Paddy