Your fear is so normal, it's horrible and we all
go through it
Things will start to make a little more sense when you get a diagnosis as to what type and stage your growth is.
I can't begin to stress how important it is to ignore those statistics, they are so off.
They had me scared out of my wits, and for n reason.
Try to let us know a little more about yourself so we may be of more help
Kathy