Katester Posted December 17, 2004 Share Posted December 17, 2004 I have always felt guilty joining LCHELP without having been diagnosed with lung cancer. I never felt that anyone could relate to my input as I wasn't a survivor and my thoughts and advice weren't coming from experience. Yesterday I was told I have lung cancer. After many false alarms throughout 2004 this one wasn't. I am thankful for the fact I have been watched so closely and this is caught in the early stage. There is no other involvment other than the mass at the top of my left lung and surgical removal is the plan assuming I can get through the PFT . I have asthma and am a former smoker. I quit about 3 years ago. I think my lungs are strong enough to withstand the surgery. They are confident I am fine, I am the one with the doubts. It will just be the portion of the effected lung not the entire lung. I recall the surgeon saying 18% ( couldn't round it off t0 20%). I do like the surgeon and have been with my pulmonary doctor for some time now. The plan is that I will be operated on the week between Christmas and New Years. They said a week in the hospital , a month recovery, and 3 months to where I was feeling myself. I don't have to be a rocket scientist to know this is going to hurt. I have trouble with paper cuts. I read a recent post that said all the emotions could be wrapped up into the word fear. That would be me. More than anything, I think I am just afraid and I haven't a clue as to why. As I am telling my Family one by one I feel as though I am hurting them but they are forming this emotional circle around me and protecting me with their support and love. My husband has been amazing through this and has made the ultimate promise to put something on my feet in the hospital cause he knows when I wake up my feet will be cold!!! Now I know and the fight begins. Kate Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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