Jana_W Posted January 24, 2006 Share Posted January 24, 2006 Hi all I am so sick of having to live my life without Mum. Does anyone (everyone?) else feel this way? Not that I don't want to live, please don't take it that way. But I am just so tired of the fact that I have to get used to living without Mum. That I wake up every day and breathe and exist in a world that doesn't have my Mum in it anymore. How can this be? So much has happened since Mum died five months ago. I can't believe it's been five whole months She was never able to meet my baby girl Veronika and share in the joy I have being a new Mummy, she was never able to see our new home finished and too many other things to mention. My heart aches with an emptiness that I am so tired of, yet I don't want to let go of it either. I am also so angry that this has happened and that Mum really did die from the cancer and we couldn't find what could help her. Sometimes I feel like we failed her, and we couldn't find what would make her better. Oh, so many thoughts and feelings but mostly just unbearable sadness. I seem to be doing fine to most people (and I think I really am doing OK), but it's weird how you can go about your every day life doing what you have to do, yet it all feels different. And I won't even start on how much I grieve for my poor Dad who lost the love of his entire world. That is just too hard to explain and far too overwhelming. Jana xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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