Kel M Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Hi, I've read that it is quite normal for a person who has lost a loved one to an illness to become slightly paranoid about getting the same disease. In fact, it's a part of grieving that usually fades with time, according to the experts. Last week, for reasons completely unrelated to cancer, I had to get a chest x-ray. I must admit, that for just a moment I was paralyzed. A chest x-ray is no longer just a chest x-ray. It's what foretold of Mom's illness and ultimately, death. I thought I handled things pretty well until I got into the room and the technician started to instruct me on how to position my arms - and all I could think about was my tiny Mom, having to do the same thing, time and again. I just about bolted. I'll hear about the results of this, and an ECG next Wednesday. While I suspect all is well, it has brought a flood of painful memories back. I wish each and everyone of you a good day. Kel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Hang in there, I think it's quite normal to feel this way. Stay strong Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Kel,I'm sure those are normal feelings to have.Wishing you ggod results on all your tests. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 (((Kel))), I can only imagine how you felt. Prayers are coming for good results to all. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Kel, I thought the same thing about my dad's brain cancer the first time I had a brain MRI. It definitely triggered a memory of helplessness for both of us. Good to see your smiling face, even if it is in the grief column. I think the world of you, girlie! Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 (((Kel)))) I get that. Hugs, Pat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
flwrjunke Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Kel, I know exactly how you are feeling. I was told that I have a mass and was sent for a CT. When the doctor said "mass" all that came to mind was when my Mom was 1st dx. Scared the crap out of me. After going through everything with my Mom, I don't know if going to the doctors will ever be the same. I pray that all is ok with you, and you get your results soon. Patty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patty Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Quite understandable. Hugs,hope,& comfort for you, Patty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 Think Positive thoughts and sending prayers for great news. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted March 13, 2006 Share Posted March 13, 2006 This is so normal Kel, I am sure everything will be fine. Hope you have a good day or at least a good night. Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KC Posted March 14, 2006 Share Posted March 14, 2006 Kel, I hear you loud and clear. I am now petrified anytime I have to go to the doctor, take a blood test, pap smear, mammogram, chest xray, anything! I am filled with anxiety about it constantly. It's a terrible way to live. My father was diagnosed in Dec. 2001 and passed away 2 years ago this month. I am still traumatized by the whole thing. I hope it gets better with time. You are not alone. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pamela Posted March 14, 2006 Share Posted March 14, 2006 I understand that. I recently had to have an emergency hysterectomy because I was losing a lot of blood and my uterus was growing so rapidly that it worried by gynecologist (the path report says it weighed 853 grams, normal size 60 grams). I was so scared it was cancer that my brothers flew in from Texas and Arkansas to be with me. I found out that it scared them, too. Luckily, no cancer, but I can't tell you the relief when I got the pathology report. On the positive side, it does make me pay closer attention and live healthier. Good luck with everything! Pam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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