justme2007 Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 My poor mom. She's on a 50 mcg fentanyl patch now, plus occasional liquid morphine and vicodin for breakthrough pain. She can't walk so has a catheter in. This has really gone so fast. The hospice nurse said this morning her guess would be another week to live. I got here last night and am taking off work and staying her with her and my dad to the end. I am doing all I can for her, helping her drink and feeding her grapes and popsicles, sleeping in her room on a hide-a-bed. There's nowhere else I can think of being right now. My poor mom. She is so very thin. Her friends are all coming to visit and crying as they leave. It's hard to watch but beautiful at the same time. We are calling the priest tomorrow for Last Rites (can't remember the current phraseology). When she has the breakthrough pain, she says she wishes "this would all be over." I told her we can talk to the nurse tomorrow about increasing the fentanyl. I also told her it's okay for her to let go when she wants, that we will all be okay. I told her that God will take her when He's ready and she's ready. I really don't want my mom to die, but I just have to live in the moment, not a week from now, or it's too hard. I'm so glad I'm here with her. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EastCoastLadi Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 Please know my prayers are going out to you and your mom and dad tonite, try to stay strong, I know it may sound like a difficult thing to do, but you are, you have been, I know what you are going thru, I went thru the same with my dad. I know he tried to hang on, but we all told him it was alright to go. Please know we are here for you. Grace Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ztweb Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 Oh, my eyes are filled with tears for you. Please know with these tears come heartfelt prayers for your peace. May God wrap His loving arms around you as you make each day in His will. God bless you and your mom. May you know peace. Jen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mary colleen Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I'm glad you're there with her, too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I'm so sorry... It is so hard when it happens faster than you expect. Your post makes me remember my last week with my Mama.... As hard and terrible and hurtful as they all may be... let part of you treasure the moments you spend with your Mom. It is both terrible and beautiful.... Just... hurting with you and praying for your Mom's peace and yours. Val Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I am so very sorry for what you and your mother have to endure. My prayers for you both and also the rest of your family. Carol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I'm glad your there with your mom and dad thru this.Keeping all of you in our thoughts and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 Continued prayers for you and your family during this time. GOD BLESS!! Jamie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justme2007 Posted January 13, 2007 Author Share Posted January 13, 2007 Thank you all. Last night was bizarre. She was very agitated and had a feeding frenzy with peanuts, even though she could hardly pick them up and kept missing her mouth. She kept on asking me non-sensical questions until 2 a.m. Her very dry sense of humor has returned with all that pain medication I think, so I've been jokingly calling her Chatty Kathy. At one point, she had pulled her nightgown over her head and was breathing heavily because she had pulled her breathing tube out of her nose (she keeps doing that), and I didn't know about it. So I'm sleeping in her bed now so I have a better chance of being aware of these things as they happen. She's looking forward to her granddaughter coming again today, and a good friend of hers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Linda661 Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 Prayers for peace during this time. I know how emotionally draining this time is for you -- it's also a time of reward just to be there; I'm glad you got to be there with your mom. My mom kept pulling out the oxygen tube from her nose too...she never remembered doing it, never acknowledged that she had it on when she'd get up and move around and come to the end of the tubing length -- I never could figure that one out. Our hospice nurse said, "well, maybe she doesn't need it." I never could figure that statement out either. Gentle hugs, Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trish2418 Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I so admire your strength and dedication to your mother. My prayers are with your family. Trish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharonjo Posted January 13, 2007 Share Posted January 13, 2007 I am glad that you are able to be there with your mom. You have my prayers that God will give you and your family comfort and peace during this very difficult time. God Bless, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hollyanne Posted January 15, 2007 Share Posted January 15, 2007 You will never regret doing everything you are doing right now. It is such an honor to be with your mom as she prepares to go on an amazing journey. Know that God will take her when he is ready...and that there will be such peace. You are doing God's work right now which is simply beautiful. So much love for you over the next few days, holly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted January 15, 2007 Share Posted January 15, 2007 Oh how I understand your words, every last one of them. I pray that you will have lots of comfort from what you are doing right now. Prayers for peace for her and in your heart. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marym Posted January 16, 2007 Share Posted January 16, 2007 Prayers for you and your Mom. Mary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted January 16, 2007 Share Posted January 16, 2007 Justme, we are with you. I'm so sorry you are at this place right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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