VegasMomOf3 Posted June 22, 2007 Share Posted June 22, 2007 Hi there, I spoke with my Mom a little while ago. She began crying on the phone which is tearing me up inside. She is now on oxygen 24/7 and has been fighting some sort of respiratory infection this week and has been taking antibiotics. So on top of the cancer, she is feeling worse from the infection. My Dad had to go out of town for 2 days so my Aunt has been staying with her. My Mom told me that she was glad to have the 2 days without Dad because it allowed her to make some difficult decisions without having to look at his "sad puppy dog eyes". She says she is getting worse quickly and doesn't want to have any more tests. She wants to try and have as much "quality" time left as she can. She says that she knows that Dad wants her to fight but she just doesn't have it in her and she knows it is going to break his heart. She worries about him once she's gone. I assured her that in time he will understand and accept her decision like we will all have to. OH GOSH I SO HATE THIS DAMN SNEAKY MISERABLE DISEASE!!!!!!!!! She said "how could I have not known I was sick?" I told her that I have read stories here of the same kind - people who had no idea until they went to the doctor with some kind of pain. She's mad at herself for not knowing. She was sobbing on the phone......I'm sobbing now. I have 2 parents to support. Mom who has accepted that she will be gone soon and Dad who dearly wants her to fight. I'm so emotionally torn. I'm going out in 10 days to spend a week with them. HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO LEAVE KNOWING THAT I WONT EVER SEE MY MOM AGAIN?! IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT!! AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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