Debi Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 I decided to venture into the mall late this afternoon with my son, against my better judgement. We were in one department store, and it was just filled with Christmas 'stuff', wall to wall, pretty much everything you could think of. Suddenly, I was just overcome with the fact that I was standing in this store, breathing in Christmas, on this day after Thanksgiving, the sixth Thanksgiving since I was diagnosed. Just the wonder of Christmas, the undefinable awe that I'm alive overwhelmed me and my eyes started to fill. I wanted to share my gratitude with other shoppers, I wanted to let them all know how lucky they were to be there and what a gift it was. But of course I didn't tell anyone, I fanned my eyes so the tears would dry up and I wouldn't totally mortify my son, and kept shopping. There's a thin line between being grateful and crazy in public. I find myself overwhelmed quite often lately, on a pretty day when the clouds are amazingly beautiful, when the snow comes - I even found myself watching and marveling at the path a raindrop made when it slowly slid down my office window last week. I tear up often, unexpectedly - this overpowering wonder hits me, and I have to fight back the tears. I love the smells of candles, of perfumes, of soaps - I unscrew the lids off of everything at the store - shampoos, laundry soap, dishwasher soap - because I want to fill my senses with it all. I feel textures constantly. And most of all I look at everything, just the amazing colors and shapes that life holds. Everything is so vivid. I see meaning in art. I am thinking of taking up photography because if I could somehow translate how everything looks to me, I could show others how life looks to someone who didn't think she would have one. I'm alive. I couldn't share my gratitude with strangers, but I wanted to share it here, with friends. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Thanks for sharing that Debi. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Wow, what powerful words. Photo's should be a breeze if you can put those emotions into words. So glad you didn't mortify your son.........he may have sent for the men with the net Take care Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MsC1210 Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Debi WOW.. thank you SO much! What powerful words! Hugs Christine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Debi, What a gift your post is to us all. Hope you don't mind, but I have copied it to read for myself often. How easy it is to take for granted all the beauty in the world around us. You truly brought tears to my eyes because you touched my soul with your words. I think this post belongs in our inspiration forum. It has sure inspired me. God Bless you and thank you. Hugs, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 What awe inspired words.. It's raining today, I think I will go and watch the raindrops!! Thank you! God Bless! Jamie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bud Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Jeez, that was beautiful Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 I believe that onyy us here can truly understand the depth and meaning of your words, Debi. I feel it too. All else pales in comparison. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaminkw Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Debi, I love words and the feelings they can convey. I especially love your words, always. Judy in Key West Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SandraL Posted November 29, 2008 Share Posted November 29, 2008 Your words are very touching and inspirational Debi. Thanks for sharing. Sandra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bud Baker Posted November 30, 2008 Share Posted November 30, 2008 Very well said, Debi. And I agree with Kasey. Here is where you'll find people who truly understand and appreciate those words. Christmas is really going to drive that home for me too, since I was released from the hospital after my lung surgery on Christmas afternoon, last year. In our long distance randonneuring rides, we jokingly refer to extra miles ridden because of wrong turns as bonus miles. To me, all the miles I ride now are bonus miles. Not many people would really understand that if I told them. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LovesLife Posted December 9, 2008 Share Posted December 9, 2008 Debi - once again you keep me spell bound with your words - you never fail to amaze me how you can express your thoughts and feelings so eloquently. Honestly, I think "That's exactly how I feel/think/react"; however, I struggle to take it from my heart and put it into words. Thank you once again for sharing your innermost thoughts - it is a privilege to read. Merry Christmas Debi...good luck with the photography - I have a feeling you will see things that so many others miss...the simple, yet extraordinary things that so many take for granted. Take care, Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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