jaminkw Posted March 9, 2009 Share Posted March 9, 2009 I've read posts where people said they needed to take a break from the site. I never understood that need before but now I'm there. I have been feeling uncharacteristically down for awhile now. I need to figure it out and I think that means taking some time off from what has become my community here, my family. I know I am afraid. I'm going into five months off treatment by my own choice. I've been here and on cancergrace.org long enough to know I am not unique in going into remission following Carboplatin/Taxol/Avastin infusions. I've encountered a number of people now who have and who have also had the cancer return, often in short-time. I've lost a good measure of that "can do" spirit and know that is not good. Coming on this site used to lift me up. There was a seemingly perfect blend of seriousness and levity. Now I usually just wind up feeling sad. It's not any one thing but it didn't help me to hear of Carole's death. She is the first person who has died that I am aware joined after I did--someone I interacted with early on and talked to on the phone. I think that was just the kicker. I don't know how long I will be gone. What I do know is that I'll be back. I could never abandon this site. Take care all. I will "see you" again sometime, hopefully sometime soon. Judy in Key West Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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