Caren Posted May 24, 2009 Share Posted May 24, 2009 I just feel so empty. I want to do things (the house is an absolute mess) but every time I start doing something I don't feel like doing it anymore. Even though there are still 5 of us and the dog in the house it seems so quiet. You would have thought that my dad made a lot of noise and yet he was always so quiet. I am trying to eat, although it's the last thing I want to do. I know that I have to keep my strength up in order to be functioning well for the funeral, it's just so hard to take a mouthful of food when every one makes me feel physically sick. Mornings seem to be worse. I sit outside in the sunshine with coffee and my thoughts and it's just so sad. Then the children get up and the day begins and I have to try to carry on as 'normal' as I can. I just want the coming week to be over so that I know he's in his final resting place and not just waiting around in the Mortuary and Chapel. We have a really old bench in the garden that my dad always talked about restoring (it's more of a long work bench) if he had the energy. My husband has said that he is going to restore it and have a plaque engraved and put on. My youngest child requested some Roses for Grandad and so we will plant a Rose Tree next to the bench. Now I'm just rambling...... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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