JoniRobertWilson Posted May 24, 2004 Share Posted May 24, 2004 I'm sitting here, wondering if I have the strength to fight this one more day. My husband (41) is suffering from SCLC. He had to have fluid drained out of his body Thursday ( 2 1/2 liters) and it appears that the fluid has returned again. He is in severe pain tonight. We have an appt with the doctor tomorrow a.m.. He's suppose to have his chemo Mon/Tues/Wed. I just keep thinking, we had this great life before 3/17/04. We didn't think we took anything for granted but trust me we did. Even the little things, like getting to sleep together in the same bed, him taking out the trash and empyting the litter box. We have a great 8 year old son who looks just like me but is just like his dad and he needs him to be well. I would rather me go through this than my husband. I'd take it ten times harder if he just didn't have to go through this. I rarely cry in front of him because he has enough to deal with so I'm unloading on a faceless crowd with hearts of gold, who I know understand. We have a big Faith in God which I know allows me to get up and start each day. This a.m. it was so hard ot even get up because I knew the day would be long and I had so much to do that I didn't even want to start. If I just knew everything would turn out all right I know I could see this through but we don't have those guarantees do we? I just want it to be ok. I read your postings and you all seem so upbeat...sorry I'm a downer tonight but I feel hopeless and that scares me. We get the pathology from the fluid tomorrow. I hope and pray that there is no sign of cancer in the fluid. Good night. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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