Cheryl, I remember all of the bad times you are speaking about and I still was very glad to see that you had started to once again post. Like others, I tried to find out how you were doing when you were away and posting mainly on another board. Unfortunately, we are all tied together by a common thread and we need to hold together, be strong and understand each others needs. Right now, while fighting for your life, is not a time to feel alone. I, for one, will be here to listen and support you should you need me. We have all made mistakes that we wish we could somehow undo but sometimes that's just not possible. We just have to pick ourselves up and go on and make the most of each new day.