Lil, first I want to say--I'm so proud you haven't smoked in 10 days--how wonderful You are a strong person. And, my heart aches for you and your hurt, and emptiness. It is so hard to lose your soulmate. I know how you feel. I, also, find in the evening looking at the beautiful skies and sunsets--I become emotional. I think of Mike and how much I miss him. And of all the sunsets we will not share. I try to remain positive but at this point in my life, I'm not. Right now, it is hard to be happy. I wish you the best, and continued healing. I am praying for you. God bless,Nancy C