Oh Missy I so understand. You really need to take this time, and just be angry, sad and any other emotion you have. I did the same thing always pushing myself to be the same person I was before all of this happened. I will never be the same, but I am starting to enjoy life again. It doesn't mean I miss or think of her less, I am just working through it. You can PM me anytime you want, not that I have the right words, but I am a good listener. I have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. (((Missy))).
Connie