shelliemacs

this is all I want and expect from you. Breathe in.....breathe out....breathe in...breathe out.... when this isn't so painful, get back to me. until then simply work on accomplishing the above task.

i have had good and bad with the feeding tube issue. My cousin tom had his in for over a year because he had mouth and tounge cancer and could not eat solid foods and only took in meal replacements and jucie that he made himself in that Jack LaLane juicer. he did well with it. my mom had one and we had nothing but bad results with it. it got infected, fell out once and whenever we fed her sometimes the liquid would leak back out and cause her great discomfort. just make sure a good surgeon does the procedure and clean it as often as they tell him too. good luck

I agree with Paddy. Listen to him. he is trying to tell you something that you don't want to hear. When we were in hospice with mom and dad. the hospice nurse told me "Sometimes they know and don't know how to tell us" I would take the family leave. This is when he needs you the most. Not only for him, but so he will know you will be ok as well.

Hi Paula. Wow do I know what your feeling. The rollercoaster you have gotten onto will settle down over the next few weeks. As soon as treatment starts, its like all of a sudden your chest loosens just a bit so you can take a breath and just knowing chemo is flowing will help. Don't be brave and if you find yourself overwhelmed, get on some anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds so you can continue to take care of yourself as well. sometimes this journey is very long. Unfortunately mine few times already were not. take care of yourself and make sure your mom puts on weight now cause chemo may make her loose it. weight helps with chemo side effects. the more the better it seems. shelly

well eppie your correct. the first two are true and the kids at chukee cheese.... well there isn't enough money in print to make me do that.

Once there was a blonde a red head and a bernette who got stuck on a desserted island 10 miles away from land. One day the burmette said, "I can't take this anymore" and swam three miles then drowned. Then the red head said, "I can't take this anymore either" swam 5 miles then drowned. Then the blonde said "ummm ya me neither" swam 9 miles got tired and swam back. A blonde goes to the movies, her boyfriend asks if she wants any thing to eat, she says yes M&Ms. So he goes to get her some M&Ms. He comes back with the M&Ms and gives them to her, she opens up the bag and pulls out all the brown ones and gives it to her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked why she gave him all the brown ones, and she said "Oh I'm allergic to chocolate." A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle and I can't figure out how to get it started. Her boyfriend asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?" The blonde says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a tiger. "Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table. He studies the pieces for a moment, then turns to her and says, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a tiger." He held her hand softly, led her to a chair and said, "Secondly, I'd advise you to relax. Let's have a cup of coffee, and then. ... "He sighed, "let's put all these Frosted Flakes back in the box."

mine... 1) I do not have the web of skin on the under side of my tounge due to an unfortunate accident when I was 17. 2) I was in a Bon Jovi video when I was 21. 3) I love to take a bunch of little kids to chukee cheese so I have an excuse to jump in the big room full of those little plastic balls.

this is the best news I have heard all day.

When you were born, everyone around you was smiling and you were crying. Live your life so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying Before you look up and open your mouth to catch snowflakes when it's snowing... make sure ALL of the birds have flown South for the Winter.

Minds are like parachutes--they only function when open "If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant; if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome If youre paddling upstream in a canoe and a wheel falls off, how many pancakes fit in a doghouse? None! Icecream doesn't have bones!!!

Life is to short to watch what you eat. If there was a pill, that taken once, gave you immortality, and the only side effect was continuous diarrhea for a year, would you take the pill?

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my sister is still in remission. Although I fight with her daily to take the once a day chemo kinda pill. she has to take it for 5 years and a side effect is she is gaining allot of weight. she is getting married in July so she wants to stop taking it so she can loose weight but then she could relapse. weight isn't healthy either cause she is such a shorty and heart disease runs in the family as well as cancer. (gettin it from both ends) and well I figure her weight is something she can battle more so than relapsing in cancer.

Live life to the fullest, go after your dreams and try your best. You may go a long way Everyone plans for tommorow, but tommorow is promised to no one I hope your life is like toilet paper, long and useful

#3 ) If 90% of the people in the world dont have it, why do they call it common sense? #4) Ever noticed how all women's problems begin with men? MENtal illnes....MENstrual cramps...MENtal breakdown....MENopause...GUYnocologist

Carleen and Keith, take this advice with a grain of salt from someone without children. I agree with you that now in this moment, the Hurry Up to have a baby so Keith can know him or her is a heart decision. My worry is that say your carrying when something dreadful happens to Keith. Would the stress you are then under possibly cause a miscarriage? Would your efforts and money then be futile? would waiting a bit be awful. No matter which way you choose, now or later. Keith will ALWAYS know his child, the child may just have to listen a little harder to hear his or her dad. If keith does make his journey in the next few years or months, Heaven is only a breath away. Its not far, only a single heartbeat and he will always have the ability to see his baby. Not in the way you want him too, but he will be there. Who knows, they say the cup of souls holds only so many and then they are born again into little baby's, maybe if you focused all the attention now onto Keith and waited, his sould will be re-born into his baby boy or girl. god this sounds awful to type this knowing your going to read this and its in the context of Keith being or not being here. liek I said, I don't have kids, I tried and twice I was halfway there and then for whatever reason, it was not meant to be. my opion, and its strictly a loose one at that. wait for now and focus on him and you. there is always a way to have Keith's little one later on.

To the world you're maybe one person, but to one person you maybe the world. Always rememeber you're loved; never forget someone always cares.

WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!!!!!!!. WAY TO START THE NEW YEARS RIGHT by the way what is the choice of dinners we will all have at the wedding. I prefer chicken myself.

i got one, i got one, even though your back ann here is where you really were. She has been whisked away by the secret service. She has been taken to the double dog dare you secret room at the white house because our president has been stuck tounge first, to a frozen flag pole for quite some time now and Ann is running the country. The first official act she signed was to make drinking Grey Goose Vodka and low calorie cranberry juice a federal law. unless your under the age of 8 where as you must drink just the grey goose vodka and skip the juice. she has then ordered all american cows to produce only chocolate milk so when the farmers milk them they secretely process the milk with kahula and instant mudslides are produced in mass quantities. she has then ordered all junk food manufacturers to take our all calories and fat from brownies, potato chips, chees dips, chocolate cake, tootsie rolls, ding dongs and cheeseburgers. Eating such foods will now produce a reduction of weight and mass eating of these foods is hereby encouraged. furthermore she has ordered reversal of the natural order of things by scientists and people will no longer age or get wrinkles. Bread and pasta will now be the only foods that one must consume daily in order to be able to awaken at the now decent hour of noon and the official work week starts wednesday at 3 and ends at 4. pm that is. all other days are now considered weekend days. also taxes no longer have to be paid by anyone, ever again we can't hide your secret life anymore ann. I am sorry but the truth must be told.

This is gonna be my new thing to try to keep myself, and maybe someone else along the way, up instead of getting beat down. #1 "Great opportunities to help others seldom come, but small ones surround us every day" author Sally Koch my take on this...I am here, alive for this moment at least. I am going to make the most of today as if its all I have left and hopefully bring someone else a smile, even if its just one small. PS I am going to try to do this every day. some may be funny, some may be really funny and some could be a little bit naughty. I will give them a rating in the headline for not wanting to offend anyone. shelly mucho smooches to every single one of you from my snow covered corner of Upstate NY.

driving through my neighborhood and looking at certain Christmas decorations, It hit me how the majority of us feel. Were all like those new decorations that you plug in and the fan inside them blows them up and keeps them blown up until you unplug them. Like a snowman, a Santa Claus, a polar bear, those new snow globe like things with the fake snow flying around in them. we are all deflated because of what Cancer has taken or may take from us. We are all each others electricity and were here to keep the others who need it more than we do at this time "filled with air" in a way. so if any of you are feeling like your wilting, falling over, slumping to one side or just plain blown over. Tell me you need me to filly you up and hold you up again and I will be there for you. You all held me up for almost 2 years straight. My resolution this year is to live as if my parents are standing on either side of me and guiding my way. (as long as they don't come into the bathroom with me) I have been deflated so long and watching all my neighbors blow these silly decorations up every night for weeks now has clicked with me that I need to help blow others up now and maybe that will also at the same time "hold" me up too. so, come one, who needs my electricity????

Carlene, my cousin went through your experiance two years ago new years day. Her 33 year old husband died of cancer. She was 30 and had a 2 year old. in Three days she will have made it past the 2nd anniversary of losing him. how did she do this. to this day she could only say she got up, took a breath, and laid down again. She is still in pain and still grieving, and lives in a routine that she never ever wanted to be in. She still hopes someday to be able to live life again, right now she just exists to breath and that is it. Keith is still here, you can hold him and love him and tell him he is your every breath. IF someday he makes the journey before you, you will exist FOR him and live FOR him. don't think so much about the without him part. He will never part from your heart, just from the visible eye. He is your heart and will ALWAYS be your heart. don't give up yet, todays page is still unwritten in front of you both. just don't let the day come, when you too make the journey, and if he did go before you and you meet up with him again, don't let his first words to you be "My love why did you spend so much time missing me when I was always with you.". Carlene, Keith and you share a heart so your life is also his life. If a day comes when he is not physicially there, he is still there just look a little harder.

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**do not feel bad for me, that is not my reason for posting this** Three christmas ago mom was so very sick and we had such a huge blizzard here in upstate NY there was no dinner to be had. we all were at our own homes and it was very sad and quiet two christmas ago (our first without mom) we tried to cook a dinner the way mom did. Everyone, especially dad, was too sad to eat it, last christmas, (our first without dad and second without mom) I stayed in bed the entire day. No presents and no dinner this christmas my husband and I are going to a diner thats open 24/7 and then going to a movie. have to start somewhere again i guess.

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a mother is sometimes unbearable.