Yah, I feel that way, although I generally have not really worried so much in the past, as getting nervous about 10 minutes before I see the oncodoc. I suppose in the future I will worry more since I found out after my last visit that I had another tumor. And, at my last visit, I really was not worried at all. My blood pressure was normal, and I was relaxed, then "the other shoe dropped". It was established that I had a second tumor about a year out from my first surgery. And, I probably won't worry much for next few checkups until I am about 9 months out from my last surgery. I guess I get to start my five year count all over again. But, I still have a chance at a cure!