Geri Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Good Thursday morning everyone. Tomorrow I have my test appts, my first onc visit in 6 months and my first brain MRI and chest CT in a year and today I'm getting down to the wire in the anticipation department. I've not yet turned into the wicked witch of the west - my husband has been spared that onslaught this time. I have absolutely no reason to think that these test results will any different to any of the countless others I have worried about, but this time I think it's because I'm out of the test habit. When I was going through tx I really didn't give the tests a thought except for the inconvenience of having them. They were so regular that I guess it didn't occur to me that another problem might be found. Now however, it's been a year since I had them and the 'what ifs' are surfacing. I opted not to have PCI after my initial tx but having read these boards for the last year I've spent a lot of time second guessing my decision (mostly I don't think about it except when someone posts about a brain met). Sooooo, if you could send some positive thoughts my way I'd appreciate it. Can't make up my mind whether to have a nervous breakdown or just turn catatonic for a day!!!! Of course in 36 hours I fully expect to feel like a real chump for worrying about it all. As everyone with cancer can relate to this I feel very safe in voicing my fears.........non cancer people just give reassurance but don't understand. Thanks for listening Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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