ginnyde Posted August 16, 2006 Share Posted August 16, 2006 It can not be 2 years. In many ways it feels like yesterday and in others like a lifetime ago. I have lost many people in my life, both parents and both siblings for starters. But I had no idea how devastating the lose of a spouse would be. Like Tina and Sue with having 'chores' that only the man could (or want) to do, I sometimes get mad because now I have to do them and many times am not sure how (but fumble through them). I have this huge hole in my heart, it doesn't seem to want to heal. As Pat says, I miss him like fire, in all ways, at all times. I hope I have not exalted him to sainthood among my friends, something I think we widows are prone to do. Earl was a fine man, he treated me like gold and he also treated everyone with respect. He was smart, not overly educated, but common sense smart, worldly smart, drive me crazy smart sometimes. He was funny, could tell a great story. He slept late, too late - this drove everyone crazy. (See he is not a saint) He could fix anything but his job jar overflowed. (Sound familiar ladies.) I love him, not loved, I love him. I always will. The night he was dying I kept telling him he was my heart - that has not changed. So as I write this, 2 years seems like 2 minutes. Do I hate lc, you better believe it, but I would have hated any disease or accident that took Earl away from me. But what I hate, hate, hate about lc, is the lack of funding to find a cure. So I will continue to support lc causes, and hopefully continue to support all of you here. So many of you are heros in my eyes. Don't feel sorry for me. I had a wonderful life with Earl and for that I am eternally grateful. And I have a wonderful, loving family, terrific fun friends and a busy life. Thank you God, I am healthy, which as we know is an amazing gift. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SBeth Posted August 16, 2006 Share Posted August 16, 2006 Thank you Ginny, for sharing such warmth with all of us. I have no doubts that your Earl was the wonderful husband you have portrayed him to be. I cannot imagine that you would/could settle for anything less. You are a remarkable woman and your insight and compassion here at LCSC have given me much hope and peace. I am so very sorry for your loss, but I am proud to be able to call you my "sister" in this journey. On Friday, I'll be burning a candle in honor of your Earl and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Love and peace, Beth Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted August 16, 2006 Share Posted August 16, 2006 Ginny, Can it possibly be two years? Where did that time go to? It seems like only yesterday that I learned of Earls passing. I know it doesn't get easier, just kindof gets more bearable I suppose. Please know that I will be thinking of you on the 18th and lifting a glass and toasting to Earl... and the wonderful life you two shared. God Bless.. Love, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
luvmydog2 Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Gosh Ginny. How time does fly. It does not seem like 2 years. It seems like yesterday that you were posting another chapter about the Duke. Another thing...I am glad you have stayed with us. You have always been an inspiration to a lot of us here. Altho you and I are not fighting the same battle, I have been inspired by a lot of your posts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cathy Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Ginny, Your post was beautifully written, hope friday passes gently for and your family.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Ginny- I am glad you've stuck with all of us here when it can't be easy at times. It does not seem like 2 years. Your efforts to help find a cure are a wonderful tribute to the Duke. Thanks for all you do for us and the cause. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Your words were beautiful. Thinking of you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolyn50 Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Ginny, It will be two years for me too since I lost my husband, John to NSCLC. It seems like yesterday. And, I too, will always love John. I am so hollow lately. It is so hard. I miss him so. But I need to be here for my children. And so we go on. Good luck to you. Carolyn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Ginny, I so remember Earl's passing . I was fairly new here , but you made "the Duke" so alive and so special to us all and we so deeply felt the pain of the loving friend we know as Ginny. God Bless you Ginny. Thank you for all you do. I'm sure "The Duke" is so proud of you. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 I didn't "know" Earl for long but he always held a very special place. I hope the 18th brings good memories flooding back too. Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JimW Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Ginny, Checking in and saw your post - hard to believe it is two years. I'm happy you are doing well. Jim Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilyjohn Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 Wow Ginny two years! It seems like only yesterday that I would come here and look for the new chapter of The Duke Of Earl. I know what you mean about hating it but life goes on. What you are doing is a credit to your love for Earl. I'm hoping that aniversary date will not be too heart wrenching for you. Lillian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted August 17, 2006 Share Posted August 17, 2006 ((((((((((Ginny)))))))))) What a truly beautiful post from such a beautiful lady. Yes, you were very fortunate to have such a wonderful man in your life and he was blessed to have such a graceful lady by his side. I all too well know the pain and heartaches you have endured since losing your dear Earl. It doesn't seem possible that two years have passed. I can hardly believe that December will bring the four year mark of my absence from Dennis. You have been sich a great role model for all of the widows on this board. Even when your pain has been the deepest, you have always had faith and inspiration to carry on. We are so blessed that you have remained with us and are here to help us carry on. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted August 18, 2006 Share Posted August 18, 2006 Very nice Ginny. Rich-- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted August 19, 2006 Share Posted August 19, 2006 Earl must have just passed when I came on as I did not know your DUKE... only that he was gone. It is amazing how much you get to love someone so much as they are a part of you and how lost you are when they leave us. I pray I never have to experience a loss like that. Thank G-d you have so many friends that helped you through so many of your tradegies as you certainly have had your share. Thinking of you. (((((((GINNY))))) Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie B Posted August 19, 2006 Share Posted August 19, 2006 I to can not believe it's been two years. I have no idea how it feels to lose a spouse, I have no doubt it's very very difficult. I sure you have up days and down days. I'm sure Earl extends his arms to you during your down days. I know you will continue to have wonderful joyful memories of your life together. I hope Earls Memorial day passed softly for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail p-m Posted August 19, 2006 Share Posted August 19, 2006 Ginny, It's hard for me to believe that it has been two years since Earl's passing. I remember reading all your posts during the time that he was sick and so felt your love for him. I'm glad you have many loving supportive friends and relatives but I do understand that you still miss Earl greatly and you always will --- (((Ginny))) gail p-m Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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