Candy Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Hugh is having a bone scan at the hospital as I am typing. I'm having trouble concentrating. Usually I am with him when he's having these, but he's feeling well enough now to drive and I like to save my time off to be with him when we see the doctor and for his treatments. Not much I can do when he has his scans. Tomorrow he has the heart scan and a CT scan. We get the results Friday. It seems like many people are having scans this week, so I am really praying extra-hard. I know it works! Its good to know I am not alone with this extreme nervousness that I have everytime we have to go for scan results. I had a moment of feeling dumb the other day when I mentioned to my sister that on Friday I would be physically ill by the time I got to the doctor's office and she told me that was "ridiculous". She said that no amount of worrying would change what was going on inside Hugh and that worrying was just a waste of time. Afterall what we found out was there no matter what. As I said, I had a MOMENT of feeling dumb - afterall, I know I can't change whats in there. But then I came online and read posts and knew it was normal to be worried. Here's hoping that we ALL will be posting on the Good News board next week! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shelliemacs Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy, I am holding your hand waiting with you to get through the wait. We have scans too for mom on 7/7 and I am sweating them too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tiny Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy-- Right there with you feeling "dumbly" anxious! Before I was a part of the scan-to-scan family, I had no clue, either. Praying for the best! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Terrie Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy - Will be praying really hard that those scans are good and clean!! Just went through those nervous nellies myself and I, as well as everyone, can certainly relate!! Will look forward to your good post! Terrie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daggiesmom Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Dear Candy, As much as i tell myself not to worry at testing time, i always do. I think it is human nature to worry with this situation we're in. I can't image not worrying. I am scheduled for a brain MRI tomorrow a.m. - even though i have no symptoms, you can bet i'm worried. tell you what, i'll pray for you and you pray for me, ok? Joanie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest bessb Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy I think it is ABNORMAL not to worry! My God no matter how little control we have over the outcome it is extremely normal to worry, tell your sister you are very normal, easy for her to say, its not her husband going through this, some people just DO NOT GET IT! I think she is the one who is not normal. Praying for you and Hugh that the outcome is good! hang in there, we always have hope Bess B Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyd Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy, Earl and I just got back from a follow up visit with his radiation oncologist. We had to take both his CT scan and brain MRI. Now, I have to tell you that his neurosurgeon told us 10 days ago his brain is empty and the thoracic surgeon told us last week his chest was emtpy. These were the same scans, why was I worried? Guess what, he agreed with the other doctors. We worry, it goes with the territory. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy, I agree with everyone else. How can you NOT worry???????? I know that it doesn't change anything - there's the logical side of the brain - but for heaven's sake we aren't dealing with logic here - we are dealing with LOVE which is emotional in all aspects. NOT WORRYING IS LIKE NOT BREATHING WHEN IT IS YOUR LOVED ONE. Praying for you, Peg Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AdaW Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Dear Candy, I have worked very hard to try to stay calm when I am waiting for the results of my scans. In a way, after 2 years, I think I'm a little numb emotionally from trying to remain calm. I think I'm doing well in this area, but 2 weeks ago, when we went to specialists about a possible melanoma is my husband's eye, I had to take medication just to get in the car and drive to the doctors' appointments with him. I was worried sick about Jim. And yes, my worry didn't change the diagnosis, but I love my husband and I don't want him to have to go through the anguish of treatments and illness. Well, enough said. Until someone experiences cancer first hand or loves someone with cancer, they really don't understand what this is all about. Ada Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted June 17, 2003 Share Posted June 17, 2003 Candy, it is true -- worry doesn't change anything. But I believe some people are sort of born to worry -- my wife is one of those. If it makes you feel like you are doing something, I would say it is helpful. It does do a number on our insides however. Maybe you could choose to worry about the big things and let the little things go. Of course, then you have to decide what category each thing is in! Ha! Blessings! I like the idea of us all being able to post in the "Good News" soon -- I like the ring of that. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail Posted June 18, 2003 Share Posted June 18, 2003 I've learned (through therapy) to allow myself to worry, and then put it away. I usually can get myself to a point where I can say "Cancer has taken enough time. I am not going to give it another minute until I have to." I just went through this last week. And I can work myself into a tizzy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sophia88 Posted June 18, 2003 Share Posted June 18, 2003 My Dad just got back his CAT scan results. The waiting is overwhelming and frustrating. There is so much to deal with all of a suddent. Our lives all changed in one heartbeat. Worry seems like a way of life sometimes...but it is important to stay positive and strong..but that sure is easier said than done. Hope Hughes tests indicate good news for both of you. Praying for you both Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LindaMRG Posted June 18, 2003 Share Posted June 18, 2003 Isnt it true what Sophia says, "Our lives are changed in one heartbeat". I get nervous when I just see my father's oncologist. There is no way to stop the worry, even though we know it doesnt change anything. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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