hollyridge Posted September 18, 2004 Share Posted September 18, 2004 I made a discovery a little bit ago that has me absolutely reeling. My dear sweet husband Bill who died on February 26th of this year left me a video tape and did not tell me where to find it. I decided I would finally look at a couple of old tapes from our vacations or christmas and I pulled out three of them from the shelf behind the bar where they have been kept for years and next to one of them was an un-labeled video tape. It just said BILL, DAD, GRANDPA on it on a post-it note. I brought it upstairs and decided to see what it was in order to label it properly and almost passed out when I saw it was Bill, outside on our deck, facing the camera, and giving a lengthy narrative telling me and our three children and our four grandchildren goodbye. He made the tape in secret over two years ago and never told me that it existed or where to find it. I cannot imagine how he thought I would find it. It was not in any special place. It was just sitting among the other videos. I am still in shock. I feel so honored that he did this but I am still confused as to why the secret. I miss him so much it makes me sick. When he died 6 months ago I was only 49 years old. Now I am 50 and alone and I need him so badly. I am desparate to see him and hold him and smell him. I have only watched the video twice because I get so upset by it. I need to get some help to figure this out. My heart is destroyed and my life is over and I need to be with my Bill. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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