Good morning to all,
Can't believe I am wide awake at 3 am - I love to sleep.
AS we have all seen, life with cancer has a way of messing with the mind
The one thing that I have thought since diagnosis was that this illness gave me the opportunity to reexamine my life and make adjustments to make whatever time I have left - say another 40 years or so - and make my life more fulfilling. You know the "this is a sign" to make a difference somehow mentality.
I have made the big changes - dial back the job and stress levels, enjoy my families and friends more, cherish the small things, tell people how important they are to me always, etc......
But I haven't figured out "what I should be doing" or "what is the reason that I got sick". I am approaching my 1 year anniversary and feel like I should have figured it out by now. The down side is - I am at a loss, havent figured anything out. Sometimes I feel panicked about it, others I think I am making to much out of it and maybe I should just relax and enjoy the ride.
I am sure there will be wide varying thoughts on this one, I would think that I am not the only one that has gone through this process.
Did many of you come to some big revalation? Did you end up making major changes in your lives? Thoughts???
Thanks in advance!!
Wendy