Kathy, as Connie says, it has only been 5 months -- give yourself time. You will eventually feel better but you will never not miss your dad. I lost both my parents when I was in my early twenties, and each time I have accomplished something, or my kids have accomplished something, I have those pangs of "I wish they were here now". So you don't get over it, you just become used to the life without him. You best gift to your dad is to be the best Kathy you can be, and be a living memorial to him. I know you can do that. You're already a great human being. God's grace. Don