Oh, I do so understand. It's been 6 months since my Dad passed away. (I can't believe it's been that long already). Anyhow, he lived in the house since 1966. Yes, it's "Dad's house". I live quite far away but my sister has been slowly cleaning it up; she couldn't even go into it by herself for the first few months. There will probably be a garage sale in April and then the house will be put on the market. When I think of Dad's house, I think of him sitting in "his chair" in the living room. That's the way I will always remember it. I have talked to my "counsellor" and she mentioned to me what I already knew -- that I should go back before it's sold because I need some sort of "closure" with the house and N.Y. since I've been there virtually every summer for a few weeks and that won't be happening anymore. I can't imagine anyone else living in "Dad's house" but, of course, have to accept the inevitable. So yes, Nancy, I do understand only "too well" what your feeeling.
((Nancy))
gail p-m