I agree with Nat. I went back to see Aki's post b/c I had not read it before. I don't see anger or self centeredness at all. If her response is self centered, then color me the same. I read the post as Aki being scared and afraid, having dreams of losing her mom, and pulling back. Almost seems like Aki is having the exact reaction I had, just physically reacting differently.
Aki---if you read this, all of us kids react wierd to our parents having cancer. And I can't speak for all, but speaking for many I know, antidepressants REALLY helped us.
I personally cried all the time, i was scared, I was angry, I drove away from gas stations ripping out hoses That in a way is self centered b/c I was so upset, what about my poor mom! We all just react differently to things. The fact that Aki is posting her concerns shows how much she loves her mom.
Aki--talk to your mom, hug her, tell her you love her, and perhaps see if medication can help you get through this with a clear head. I could not have survived without prozac and xanax. It does not have to be lnog term, my mom was diagnosed in Nov and I am finally off the prozac now. It kind of helps keep the mind in check.
Please post all you want and vent away!!! Family member sectino is a great place to vent!