shineladysue Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 I had spent the night by his side, at the hospital, as he lay quietly and would occasionally look over at me and smile. He had told the family the night before that he wasn't afraid to die. He held up his index and middle finger together and stated "me and God are like this". He was on morphine and his breathing became raspier as morning approached, he became less responsive and then his legs were turning bluish. It was then I called the nurse and all the family. The doctor came and gave him a bit more morphine, we were all by his side as he soon slipped away about 10:50am.. That was two years ago , today. Today, I still miss him with all my being. There is a huge hole in my heart. It seems like it was just yesterday at times , but I am beginning to let in the warm memories of all the good times. It is those memories that keep me going. I was so blessed to have known such incredible love in my life. Missing you Mike. May you rest in peace, my love. Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 And may you have peace too, Sue. Two years......a lifetime ago ~ but also just a moment. May there be warm, comforting memories to lift you up today and everyday. Much love and many hugs. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 It doesn't seem possible it has been 2 years. Keep the good memories close to your heart and find comfort that in the time you had together. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MsC1210 Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 (((((Sue))))) No words, just hugs and prayers Christine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Leslie Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 Sue-- My thoughts are with you. Your strength radiates through your posts. I'll bet Mike would be very proud of you. Best, Leslie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
teriw Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 (((Sue))) I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're able to let in the good memories. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie B Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 ((((((((((((Sue)))))))))))))) I can't believe it's been two years. May today pass softly for you dear Friend! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patti B Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 (((((Sue))))) I am so sorry. I am happy you are allowing yourself to remember the good times. That is what keeps his memory alive. He will always be with you, no matter what. Wishing you peace and strength. Patti B. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 "me and God are like this" What a wonderful visual. What faith. There are stories in the Bible of people with that type of faith. I am sorry. I know the day must be rough. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Welthy Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 (((Sue))), God bless you and give you strength and comfort. Hugs, Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MomsGirl Posted March 2, 2008 Share Posted March 2, 2008 Sue, I'm wiping the tears away as I write this. May today pass gently and with loving memories of your wonderful Mike. (((Sue))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J.C. Posted March 3, 2008 Share Posted March 3, 2008 Sue, Those memories will be there for you, often they are the only thing that we wake up for, but they are there more and more as time goes by. Hugs Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted March 3, 2008 Share Posted March 3, 2008 Sue, Thank you for sharing your personal memories of your last hours with Mike... and I do believe "Mike and god are like this"!! I hope today has passed peacefully for you, and you were surrounded by wondeful, comforting memories. God Bless. Love, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkelley Posted March 3, 2008 Share Posted March 3, 2008 Sue....... Please know that I am sending hugs and prayers your way. I'm so sorry you are hurting but glad you are leaning on those warm memories.... Tammy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted March 3, 2008 Share Posted March 3, 2008 I am so sorry to read your post Sue. My heart to yours... I hope you are better today since that dreadful day is now in the past also. (((((((((((SUE))))))))))) Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted March 3, 2008 Author Share Posted March 3, 2008 What a difference a day makes. Yes, today I feel better, but I have to admit I had one of those surprise meltdowns yesterday. I wasn't going to post here, but I knew that even when the rest of the world doesn't understand that many of you do . Yesterday, I received the kindest, most understanding email from an angel on the board. The angel being , Debi/Welthy. It's nice when people take the time to think of others. I know I can't possibly keep up with all of you, but I wish I could because her message meant so much to me. Last year, I received email from several friends (friends not on this board) , who remembered the date. Yesterday, Debi's was the only email I received . People think you should be over it in two years I guess. NOT!!! What I am trying to say is that this was a lesson to me too. I learned how much it means to someone when at least one person remembers. I hope that I can remember to be there for others. Last, but not least, I want to thank ALL of you who have posted to this thread and have been here to support me all along this journey. It means so much . This is an especially emotional week, for me, because my mom will get her PET scan results on Friday.. scary time. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted March 3, 2008 Share Posted March 3, 2008 (((((((((Sue))))))))) I am so very sorry that I'm late with this little note. I know how it feels when people just don't seem to remember these dates that absolutely break our hearts. I want you to know (and always remember) just how special I think you are! You are one that always manages to put your grieving and worries aside in order to cheer someone on that's having a tough time. God gives us truly caring and unselfish friends like you to get us through the really hard times!!! The two year mark can be a really hard one after losing someone we love. When it's been one year, it all sounds so recent. But, the two year mark makes us realize how much time has really passed since we've been with those we have loved and lost. My heart goes out to you and I am always here to listen!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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