Well, I was not going to post about this but I am having a tougher time than I had thought I would.
After having just marked the one year anniversary of our loss of Darrell, here I go again.
It was 2 years ago today that I had my last email and my last phone conversation with Brad. It was 2 years ago today that he made me promise to never stop helping the cancer fight and helping those who are battling it. I have done my best to uphold those promises and I can only pray that he is happy with what I have done and continue to do.
2 years ago tomorrow, December 10, I lost him. I wish you all could have known him. My family and I adored him, just absolutely adored him. He was smart and funny and so smart. It is just unreal to me that he has been gone 2 whole years already. Some days it feels like yesterday. Some it seems an eternity ago, even another lifetime ago. And then there are days that I expect the phone to ring or to find an email waiting for me.
I just needed to get this out of my head today. Thanks for being here and I hope and pray that I am doing my best to be here for all of you as well. I certainly do my best to reach out to all of you and hope that in some small way I am able to bring some comfort.
This grief thing SUCKS. I just want to see the day that cancer is nothing more than a form of history.
Hugs and thanks for letting me whine..
Christine