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a carpet cleaner...now I know it's a good idea with all the critters I have and I appreciate having one of my own. BUT that money could have bought a pretty piece of jewelry. Or maybe the worst present was the grass catcher for my lawn mower...maybe that was a birthday present. Same idea...same reason...same fella too. LOL

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I also agree with what everyone else has said. I know that early on I often felt like I hadn't connected with the board but I still came and read. And I still come to see if maybe I can be of some help to someone....but like they said above--often I read and silently nod or agree but don't always respond. And I know what you mean about trying to protect your family members from your grief and anger. I still don't say all that I feel to my Mom's sister or even my brother. I am much more comfortable venting here where I know that folks "get it". I am still working on talking to them though. It's just so hard for us all. Feel free to PM me anytime too. Leslie

Fingers crossed for good scan results Patti! And did y'all see that they lit up the white house PINK? GRRRRR...

My Mom used Lidocain swish and swallow after radiation. It is a prescription that numbs the throat and helped her ALOT.She used it for a long time after radiation treatments ended. Ditto to Ry's suggestion on the Carnation Instant Breakfast. It is yummy and you can extra calories. And yes, my Mom was extrememly tired. But if he's not eating, that will also make him more exhausted. Best of luck--I know it's tough.

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Denise, I am so sorry! I thought "pleural effusion" too. Good luck I hope he feels better soon!

Yay Jill! That's great that the visit and meeting went so well. I am glad for all of you. Leslie

Again, I can relate. And I am so sorry we have to deal with this. After my Daddy died, I tried to spend more time with my Mom too--to try and fill the void. She also said since he had been in and out of the hospital and then at dialysis 4 hours a day, three times a week for so long she had grown accustomed to his absence. But it still broke my heart--for both of them and their loss. Unfortunately she was also sick and diagnosed with SCLC two months after his death. I miss them everyday.

I also wanted to say that I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through. I helped my mother care for my father--- he had end stage renal failure. And then I cared for my Mom by myself as she battled SCLC. Hugs for you, we are here when you need us. Leslie

In these early days the memories will swirl and ebb and flow...try to remember them all, but indeed focus on the good. And as a healthcare worker,I recommend that you don't hesitate to send any of the above a note of thanks. I KNOW they will appreciate it and you and I both know those kind and caring individuals are hard to find and it should be recognized. Many hugs, Leslie

I get it Nick and I'm sorry. I hope today goes as smoothly as it can. Peace, Leslie

Hey! I just grew this hair back after chemo treatments! I wasn't ready to cut it yet! You'd better appologize and ...

I hope that you don't stop coming here because you feel like you bring us down. We understand and it is important for you to share your feeling with those that do understand. We want to try to make your journey a little easier. Hugs to you, Leslie

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Ned, they are such pretty ladies!

Shrimp, I am so sorry. I know how you feel and I wish I could tell you that it gets better...but I'm not sure that I can. You do learn how to move on...slowly putting one foot in front of the other. Hours become days and days become weeks. Somehow we manage to go on. Yesterday was 10 months since I lost my Mom. It is still very hard and I miss both of my parents daily. I can't believe they are gone. Hugs to you, Leslie

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That is good news Sharon! I was wondering how you were doing. Many hugs and prayers, Leslie

Hi Dar, Thanks for posting and letting us know how you are doing. Yes, people checking on how we are doing does stop...they just don't understand. I have a few friends that "get it" but most don't. Like you said....little do they know. Today it has been 10 months since I lost my Mom. I am still so terribly sad. Hugs to you, I pray we all get through this. Leslie

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I too am sorry that you are feeling this way. I have these feelings about my Mom and her care and my mind goes round and round. I also begged for O2 and did some other shady things for her comfort since I have connections at the hospital. But the "what ifs" and "could ofs" won't bring them back or lessen the suffering that they endured. I debated on meeting with her oncologist for several months but I have finally decided to just let it (and her) rest. What is done, is done. Your Dad knows that you did your best and I'm sure that he is proud of you. I wish you peace and send you hugs. Vent away...that's why we're here. Leslie

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Too funny Patti!