Kel M Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Hi All, After six months of NED, yesterday's tests showed that Mom's cancer has made a comeback. There are two spots in the lung, instead of the original one and Mom's doctors are going to continue with advanced tests to determine if it has spread elsewhere. Needless to say, I feel like I've been cut off at the knees. It's a little overwhelming the second time around. At least they are going to attempt an aggressive treatment again - tempered by the fact that Mom has a blood clot in her lung as well. I'm flying home today and will put my game face on for this next fight. Mom is terribly frightened, as am I. My emotions are all over the map and I am finding it difficult to maintain some sense of balance. I'm sure things will get better once the shock wears off. At least, I hope so. Please keep us in your prayers and know that my prayers are also with you. Thanks, Kel Quote
Addie Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Aw, Kel....dangitall. I'm sorry it's back...but very glad it's been caught and it sounds like her docs have a plan of attack. Tell Mom to keep her chin up and keep slugging away...and you do the same. The next line of attack might be wildly successful.....so don't give up hope. Remind your mom that she and I BOTH are supposed to be back out on that golf course....and I'm expecting her to be there! Tell her I hollered "fore" and told her not to give up on this! Sending all positive thoughts your and her way! Quote
Haylee_38 Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Kel, I am sorry to hear its back. Know my thoughts are with you and mom. Haylee Quote
Frank Lamb Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Kel,sorry to hear this.Your right it does take the wind out of your sails.The same thing happened to me.I had 2 checkups with all clear & BANG.all of a sudden it was in my other lung.(only one left). Hoping the agressive treatments will get it gone for good this time.Also hope treatments are manageable for your mom with no bad side affects. Quote
SDianneB Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Well, shucks. One round to the cancer, but the next ones go to your mom. Looks like there is a plan in place, so GO FOR IT! We'll be thinking of you both throughout. Di Quote
shelliemacs Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 well this just sucks. Just when you think the tightness in your chest can ease a little bit too. well you unfortunately know the drill, you have to mentally build mom up to fight harder and kick its butt again. Quote
daggiesmom Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Kel, Sorry to hear of your Mom's problems; hopefully the aggressive treatment will, in fact, bring it back under control. Prayers for you and please keep us posted. Joanie Quote
mhutch1366 Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Kel, Prayers for you and your mom, that the cancer will maybe stabilize at small and be confined to that spot. Or else respond to treatment snd be gone again! XOXOXOXOX Prayers, always, MaryAnn Quote
Don Wood Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Kel, so sorry the LC has reoccurred. Prayers for you and mom. Don Quote
Cindy RN Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 It does knock you over when it comes back especially if there were no signs. With me I never had any signs EVER! Please stay encouraged. I was in remission 1 year and then again for 17 months!! I even went back to work and am teaching 2 evening class a week at the local college. Prayers being said for you and your mom. Love Cindy Quote
DebsSky Posted January 7, 2005 Posted January 7, 2005 Oh my heavens Kel, I am so, so sorry!! You are both in my prayers. Please keep us posted as to how she is doing. Deb Quote
betplace Posted January 8, 2005 Posted January 8, 2005 Oh Kell! I'm so sorry, it is certainly a kick in the stomach! I am sending hugs and prayers for both you and Mom. Blessings Betty Quote
slinaresholz Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 Sorry to hear that news. Here's hoping they can find some way to help her. Prayers for you both. Sharon Quote
cindi o'h Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 shoot, Kel. Hope that the shock wears off quickly and a new plan of action will be in place... remember, WE are warriors! cindi o'h Quote
Remembering Dave Posted January 10, 2005 Posted January 10, 2005 Kel, so sorry to hear about your Mom. Beleive me I know how dificult this is for you and your Mom but she is lucky to have a team of Doctors and she is lucky to have you. Keep your chin up. My prayers are with you and your Mom. David C Quote
kimblanchard Posted January 11, 2005 Posted January 11, 2005 Kel, We haven't met yet...my mom also has sclc. I'm sorry to hear about the reoccurance. Both you and your mom will be in my prayers. Hang in there. I'm hear if you need to talk. Nancy Quote
Kel M Posted January 12, 2005 Author Posted January 12, 2005 Thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers. Mom will be having a brain scan tomorrow to rule out the possibility that the cancer has spread into the brain. We are hopeful that the test will turn out positively. Like everyone else who has been through a relapse, we are struggling to make sense of it and trying to remain positive. Needless to say, it's been difficult. Mom is devastated and feels responsible for the return of her illness. She keeps apologizing to people for putting them through it again. It's heartbreaking. I talked to her about feeling that way and explained that unless she ordered it to return, she can't possibly be responsible for the recurrence. Logic is, unfortunately, overruled by emotion at this time. We are grieving - each of us - in our own way. We have a great deal of hope that second line treatment will do the trick, but we also know that Mom has suffered terrible setbacks in the last year that are making her re-think her position on treatment and her chances. Possibly the hardest conversation I've ever had to have occurred this past weekend, where my Mom I discussed her options and the consequences of certain choices. I somehow managed to hold myself together for it, but then disappeared outside to beat the $%!@ out of the snow. The dog now benefits from multiple trails in which to romp and pee in. I told her she has my 100% support no matter what and that we would see it through together (though I obviously hope she'll want to give it another go). Thanks for caring, all. It means so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you all as we live this disease. Cheers. Kel Quote
stand4hope Posted January 13, 2005 Posted January 13, 2005 Kel, Our emotions do breakdance when we get this kind of news. I consider breakdancing kind of "wild" and that's how I would describe the emotions and numbness we feel when we get this kind of bad news. BUT, you are correct. It will pass. Most of us agree that it takes about two weeks to get over bad news, and then it's back to the center of the ring to start the fight. You sound like you are a pretty solid person and I admire you for letting your mom take the lead in the tough decisions she is making. Hang in there. As you know, this lc roller coaster is like the biggest one at Disney World - it goes way, way, way up, and goes way, way, way down, but then it goes back up again. Love, Peggy Quote
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