Fay A. Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Every day that I don't allow this to stop me from finding joy I beat this beast at it's own game. Every day that I find something to make me smile I beat it. Every time I let them cut away another part of me, or give me medication that kills the cancer but kills off a few other things I beat it. And when the time comes that I die, I will kill the d@#n parasite with pleasure. I really will have beaten it then. In the meantime, I plan on living the very best life I can in every given moment. That means that sometimes the only pleasure I can particpate in is viewing a sunset, or reading a book, or drawing, or just sitting here listening to those I love talk among themselves. Other times I get out there in the world and -within the physical limitations as they exist- I do what I enjoy. It's a win-win situation. One way or another I win. Attitude won't cure any of us. But it DOES determine how we live. We have to make a conscious decision to LIVE. It's okay to cry and be sad, just not for too long. Thanks for being here for me. I appreciate it. Fay A. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 well said Fay Thanks gail Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tiny Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 THAT'S why you are in my "gallery"! You elevated my mood and outlook, and you are the one in the trenches (at this moment). I've printed off your post to hang on the frig and read from time to time. Thanks for the grounding. xoxoxo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LindaMRG Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Beautiful, just beautiful! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eileen Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Fay good for you!!!! You are truly an inspiration to everyone on this board -----when people get down in the dumps, they just have to read your posts ----you have been through so much, have such a positive attitude---very rarely complain---which you have every right to do---I sure wish I had you courage and calm regards Eileen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie B Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Hey Fay, You hit the NAIL right on the HEAD my friend! Took the words right out of my mouth too! This is a WIN WIN situation. So while we are on this journey, I intend to enjoy the ride the best way I can. And a Positive Attitude can only make this ride much more enjoyable! Love, Laugh and BE HAPPY!! We sure are wonderful people here! Damn, we're GOOD!!! God Bless Us All! Warm and Gentle Hugs, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
teresag Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Fay, More power to you! I'm sending positive vibes in your direction. I think it's amazing to hear people like yourself finding joy in the midst of this challenge! What a resilient soul you are, and so many others, too! Highest regards, Teresa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
norme Posted August 14, 2003 Share Posted August 14, 2003 Good for you Fay. Enjoy the moment for that is all any of us have with cancer or without.....God Bless. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sam'swifeShirley Posted August 15, 2003 Share Posted August 15, 2003 You said it so well that there is nothing to say except "Here Here" Sam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Cheryl Schaefer Posted August 15, 2003 Share Posted August 15, 2003 Nice to hear from you. You are in my thoughts. What a beautiful note you wrote. Cheryl Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nancy O. Posted August 16, 2003 Share Posted August 16, 2003 Way to go Fay, inspirational to be sure for me. Thank you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted August 16, 2003 Share Posted August 16, 2003 Great, Fay! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted August 16, 2003 Share Posted August 16, 2003 Fay That was truly unbelievable. I needed to read your post as I was having an "I feel sorry for Sue M Day". Liver met has grown from 2 cm to 4 cm and I have been on a bummer all day. After reading your post and Connie B's comments I have to agree with both of you. We are in a win-win situation. Thank you for giving me inspiration. Sue M Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debi Posted August 16, 2003 Share Posted August 16, 2003 Fay, I wanted to tell you that you are an inspiration here and that I strive to get the emotional serenity that you have. You have always taken the time to answer my posts, no matter how trivial or whining they have been. I have always smiled when I see your name as one of the people answering the post, because I know that your response will be right on the money. Thanks for always being there for me and others, and for providing an example of grace and dignity! Now, that said, lets put the gloves on and fight this damn thing. I'll be over here if you need back up!!! Debi 46 years old Stage 1A-NSCLC Surgery June 16, 2003, mid & upper lobe removed Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cathy Posted August 17, 2003 Share Posted August 17, 2003 That was beautifful and so are you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debaroo Posted August 17, 2003 Share Posted August 17, 2003 Fay, You said it!!! (APPLAUSE!) Deb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sophia88 Posted August 18, 2003 Share Posted August 18, 2003 Fay you are one strong, insightful lady....you brought mist to my eyes..but strength to my families battle...thank you for your wisdom..YOU GO GIRL!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fay A. Posted August 18, 2003 Author Share Posted August 18, 2003 Thank you all for the very kind words, but I feel like a fraud. I'm not brave, because I'm not afraid of death. I'm just not going to let go of this life before I have to.... No Puzzle, No Conundrum, No Mystery. No Question at all, No Surprize. Its really quite elementary, What happens to the body when the spirit dies.... I pray for all of us-survivors and caregivers, friends, family, and lovers. We should all try to keep our spirits alive...for ourselves and those who love us. Fay A. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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