Nick C Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 Holy cow did a wave of grief crash onto me today. Keri has a baby shower to go to, so we went to the store. The little bathtub, the ad for a pregnant woman and the older mother figure registering, even the sight of friggin baby pins... I had to leave. 2 weeks before Mom's diagnosis, we decided it was time to have a kid...would have been Mom's first Grandchild. So now what? Wait? Start? Doesn't matter, either way I won't see Mom's face when I tell her. And all the waiting in the world isn't going to change that. I'll never get what I thought was a given...Keri and I giving my mother the greatest gift we'd ever given her. Today was the FIRST TIME I said these words: THIS ISN'T FAIR. This isn't the way this was supposed to happen. This disease has taken away from the child we haven't even concieved yet the love of his/her grandmother and quite frankly the full joy he/she should get from his/her father. Because I can't imagine ever being as happy about having a child as I would have been... This is not fair to Keri, not fair to the "someday" child, not to the other grandparents, or to me. Sorry...rough day. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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