Patkid

Okay, Imagine this: A central pod (like a dome home) housing gathering space, kitchen/dining/ library, laundry ~ then surrounding the main pod: smaller pods housing bed/bathrooms. You could always find your privacy and alone time/but you could always find togetherness, hugs and sharing That just sounds like heaven to me. If I ever become rich (ha) I would build that and invite folks to join the commune type family. There would be no rules other than KINDNESS, TOLERANCE AND CONSIDERATION. Being the mom of 3 wonderful boys (men) it is a bit different than being the mom of the mom........My grandkids think I am TOPS and I always try to butt out and never cause problems so that their moms will always welcome me. I love my sons beyond words but oh the joy of a daughter...........I can only imagine.

arghh I just typed a big long post about my idea of a satelite home/arrangement ...............long story and I can not retype right now But suffice it to say: THANK YOU. Run really fast and really far, kasey if you see a wiggly lumpy package on your front porch!! Hugs. P

Oh, Lynne!! Hugs and a toast w/ HC to you and Estee. PJ sends her a wet wiggly kiss. P

You guys are awesome. Brian used to say how relieved he was that he no longer had to worry about his cholesterol. He had lost his right hand in 2000 in a work accident. When the neuropathy got really bad he used to tell his onc that he couldn't even feel his hook. some days we even played: The Good The Bad and The funny. Each tells something good about the day, something bad about the day and something funny about the day. It really helped the grandkids understand Grandpa's situation. and me too. Love P

Welcome! Let us know how we can help. We are great listeners and supporters. Hugs for your family P

I love you guys. I am looking forward to selling this house and renting or buying something that comes w/ maintenance. Good grief I hate being such a whine~y wus. Tomorrow will be better.........hopefully for all of us. Love P

Okay, I am not really serious but ............................. (well maybe I am?) I HAVE HAD IT I am not the type to live alone. I am putting myself up for adoption. On the plus side: I have finally quit smoking again. I have that battle won. It has been long enough now that I am used to the cravings and just move on ......................no biggie at last unfortunatly the process has added another 10 pounds on top of my 17 pounds of grief weight. I had to buy larger clothing...............................you can only imagine what that did to me emotionally. I fell while walking PJ .................No serious damage but scarry and I am pretty slow moving and sore ........... A light bulb 'blew up'. Now, I don't mean burned out ~ I mean it blew apart and left the metal part in the socket and glass on the floor.....................What a mess. Thank God it was in the upstairs hall so PJ nor I walked in it. You should have heard it! (This happened in this house one other time, but Brian was here............so I barely noticed it) There is ice on my deck and front porch. The neighbors have been so kind about plowing the drive way and shoveling walks......................but I can not get to the mail box unless I drive cuz there is a coating of ice and the driveway is slick, the front porch is solid ice and the back deck is buried. The furnace is making a banging noise. It is snowing AGAIN My toilet in the little bathroom is leaking somewhere and I can't tell what it is. My job sucks and they have really decreased our insurance coverage and increased the cost. They have stopped accumulating any further pension dollars. We are all under one threat after another. (another plus is that my review was good, but who cares?) They are restructuring our pay for next year...........who knows what the hell that means? I am in over my head trying to keep up with this house and there has not been one single offer since I listed it for sale. I am not tolerating the cold well at all. I miss Brian. I miss Brian I miss Brian I am going to tie a hundred dollar bill around my neck and post my pic on Craig's list as free to a good home or Will cook/clean and worry in return for a clean place to stay or Free Shih Tzu ~ comes w/ toys, food, and master Or live in babysitter/cook/ and bottle washer ARGHHHHHHH thanks for listening. I am sure things will look better tomorrow and I do love that I can write this to you. But I am just so sad and so scared and so very alone. P

Oh my God, Missy.................. What a beautiful child. I can just feel the love. Oh, honey I am so sorry that you have such a mix of emotions. I am just so very sorry, but yet,heppy for you to have Xavier. Hug hubby for me, I am sure things will even out w/ some time and peace. Much love, dear. Pat

I have been fighting my weight since Brian died. Guess I am eating my way (weigh) through my grief. I am grateful that today I am going to be proactive w/ regard to not trying to fill up this big empty hole w/ food. I am headed to grocery to stock up on veggies and fruit. NO ICE CREAM The very best comfort food/but really NO COMFORT in the end. Weekend hugs and warmth for my family here. Love Patkid

Oh, Will, Hugs for you and your wife. Stable is STABLE and now rest, relax and enjoy family for the nice break till Feb scan time. I would cushion her where she is most comfortable and let her energy dictate visits from all her favorite people and let her appetite dictate her food. No rules, just pure relishing each other and family. Love and positive thoughts Pat

okay, pupster, I am speaking as a person who is alone like you. First, Take some of the pressure and worry off by rallying the troops. Have a code or system where you can check in w/ someone every day. Give yourself a sabbatical from work for time to catch up with all that has happened in the past few months. BREATHE If $$$$ is an issue (I get that) apply for SS Disability. YOu are clearly eligible. They approved my husband Brian over the phone. There is a 6 month wait, but you can get it started. Try to be still and let your body tell you what it needs.....................I bet it tells you to rest a bit and catch up w/ yourself. I care, I understand and I am uploading all positive vibes and hugs. Pat

Welcome!!

Ann, It is scary, I know, but you are special and good things are around the corner. I just know it. Hugs. My prayers join the rest. Love P

hugs, dear. pat

Frank, miss you. All of our family members missing this holiday season...................... No words.

I remember a loving PM I got from him and how it brought a smile to my face. He was an incredibly optimistic and positive person. He is missed. Thanks for honoring him w/ this anniversary post, Christine. P

So glad to see you, Jackie. I am grateful for a work respite this weekend. and that we only got 1/2 in more snow. I fell yesterday walking PJ and am grateful that I made it home not much worse for wear. Love Patkid

Oh, honey, Your pain is palpable ............. I am so sorry and I only wish I could give you a hug. Breath Deeply and trust your heart. Pat

Hello, dear friend. I am grateful for your post and the hope and determination and positive attitude you teach me. Love Patkid

wonderful and MORE EVIDENCE that Chris did the right thing by dropping the 'cynical' from her moniker. God Bless you both and a special hug and lots of admiration for Nick. Love Pat

Jackie, I am going to trust that it is okay for me to post this here for your friends to add prayers to mine. Jackie was in hospital yesterday. She has some swelling in/on her head. They let her come home after running many tests and as tests come back she will be back in hospital for dx. Jackie, know we are all there with you in spirit and that our prayers and love have you comepletely cradled. Feel the love of OUR FATHER to whom you are so faithful, I know he has you lovingly in HIS care. Patkid

Grateful for reminders to be grateful. Also sending a cyber hug for JC cuz I miss her today. Love P

Barb, I take a lot of comfort in the last line of your bio. In peace and love Rod (and Brian ) are resting in the arms of Jesus. Amen Hugs, dear, and loving understanding and support. pat

Grateful that you are all here

Brian only had one hand. They placed it so it would not interfer w/ his prosthetic strapping. They had him marked for surgery and I caught the conflict at the last moment. They put it on the other side. You will appreciate the port! It was a great decision for Brian and he never regretted it. Just suck on a hard candy when they access it. Bri always said he could 'taste' the medicine and the lemon drop or peppermint helped. P