I recommend a good therapist. If you can find someone who knows about cancer, all the better. Mine is awesome. Last week I was just so down, I was using some colorful words to describe a driver who was rude and she did raise an eyebrow, literally. I don't know what it meant but I didn't care. She didn't either I guess. Anyway, I see her every two weeks. Your ins. rep at the 800 number will tell you exactly what is covered for how long and what you will have to pay. It is worth it.
I also take an anti-depressant. Talk to your dr. to decide which one is best for you. It does take a few weeks to go into effect but I find knowing I am doing something helps right away.
I am always amazed at how everyone here says something that I have been thinking or feeling about this horrible journey. JB I appreciated that you could rant here and know it is a safe place. I just wish Rod and I could laugh and talk like some of you. He isn't accepting.....stuff. I have been told repeatedly by therapist, and good friend, in the past 4 days that I am not in control, I can't make him do things and I can't make God do what I want. I am trying to let go. How do you let go? When my mom died, I couldn't let go, even when she was gone I wailed to her to stay, into a pillow in another room where I wouldn't freak out my dad.
I'm sure this hasn't been that helpful.
Barb