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Randy, I didn't like the holidays for various reasons, before my husband came into my life. He made it better for me. Now I don't have him here and the holidays will be difficult. Your link is beautiful, the hardest part for me is that my husband was agnostic so I don't know or can comprend where he is at. You take care of yourself. Adela

Donna, It will hurt for a long time. My support group facilitator said" Just because they have passed on doesn't mean you stop loving them" Your love for your brother continues forever.....his physical self is not here to recieve it. I feel your pain. Adela

Thanks, Don. Adela

Pat, Your words are what I feel. Peggy's words "The pain we are feeling, Pat, is unlike any other pain we've ever had in our lives." The pain is so hard. I am trying so hard to seek avenues to channel my pain away, other times I embrace the pain and just feel it. You are not alone on this path. Look to the side and I am walking with you. Adela

Thanks all it is so difficult. My daughter has not pressured me, she has spoken to her father about his behavior. I do feel I must protect myself emotionally I just don't want my daughter and son to feel I am leaving them out. My daughter is pregnant and I don't want to upset her. My gut feeling is just to take my son and I to a resturant and then later he can join sis,Dad and brother in law for desert if he wants. Ginny it takes guts to do what you want for the holidays. I have been the pleaser and the make sure the family is taken care of.I am the oldest girl so I was the take care of others one.

So sorry for your loss Adela

Sorry for your loss. Adela

Last year I celebrated Thanksgiving at the hospital with Ed,he had brain surgery to relieve the pressure on his brain. He was scared, angry and confused. It was so difficult. He loved Thanksgiving because he knew he would see his son.....a guaranteed vist. This year I am unsure what I want to do. My daughter wants to do something at her home and her Dad would be there, however my ex doesn't speak to me. I just don't know if I can handle being in a social setting with the ex and not having my husband to help me get through it. I was thinking of just going to a resturant after a morning hike and just like coccoon myself. My thearapist is sort of nudging me toward taking the high road and have dinner with my daughter and my ex. I just feel so emotionally vulnerable and I don't want to lose it. I think of you all constantly wondering how everyone is doing. I think of you all constantly and wonder how everyone is doing. This board has helped me so much. So I am going to the well again. Adela

2 years fantastic. It is hard for others to understand the signifigance of 2 years or even 1 day. A person does not realize until you walk the path of cancer. Adela

What a fantastic gift she gave to humanity and how wonderfully her family embraced that decision. Adela

I am so sorry. Adela

Gwen, this must be so hard for you. Is there a student advocate group that can help you with your son's issues? My son was in special education and there were meetings called IEP's to decide what direction to take concerning his education. What a difficult time for you, you are such a wonderful daughter and Mother. Adela

Jodi, my thoughts are with you at this time. Adela

Gwen, what a wonderful thing to do for your Dad. You will always remember it and cherish it.

Caregiving was hard. 7 months later,I am very tired, I don't sleep well. I cry every night, the list could go on and on. It was and is a very stressful time. Trying to take time for yourself is hard and you just want to be with them. Because you know what the future has in store for you. Adela

I am so sorry. Adela

I am so sorry. It is very difficult. Adela

I am so sorry. Adela

Don, I am so sorry for your loss. Adela

I am so sorry for your loss. Adela

I am so sorry. Adela

Peggy, Hope your son is doing much better and has made it home on Tuesday, today.You are in my thoughts and prayers. Adela

Lori, Oh how I remember this part of the journey so vividly. There is sort of a tranqulity that will surround you and your Mom. You have been such a wonderful daughter. Adela

Don, you and Lucie are such a strength for me and I am sure for many on this board. During this time know that I am thinking about you and hope Lucie is comfortable and able to beat this. Adela

Yep weekends are hard. Ed would get up and do bill writing and cook breakfast. He was a big believer in eating at home. Grief and accepting it is hard work. The facilitator at the support group will always say grief work is hard. It is Ok to grieve......and say you are grieving. At this point in my life I am not happy(whatever the definitation may be) I allow myself fun times and content moments and crying moments. Most people do not understand the grief process, so the comments are meant to try to make you feel better. It is really a very indiviual journey that each of us are traveling. I started hiking each weekend, Ed introduced me to hiking in the beautiful mountains of Seattle. I miss him a lot. Paddy I can't even go to church. Take care, Adela