Barbb

My daughter and I are doing Free to Breathe in Lincoln, NE in Oct. and we aren't coming up with a good team name. PLEASE send us some ideas!!! Barbb

My heart goes out to her family, here and at home. Barbb

Now that is something that I think is a "God Thing"! Barbb

(((Caren))) these anniversaries are really, really painful. We understand. Barbb

everything you folks said...yes, bugs me. Ann, you were talking about a couple people in my family a male and a female, kind of nice not being the only one!! Barbb

{{{{Carleen}}}} Those things you miss? Those feelings you want to feel again? Totally agree with you. I'm so sad you are in the dark place. We know you love your current husband, but no one can touch the place where Keith was. I wish I could help you like you help me, just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. Barbb

That was AWESOME barbb

Now that's funny!

That's great!! I'd slap him.

Cookie Monster....Cooookies!

That sure made the tears flow. My dog gets an extra hug too. Barbb

Thanks Muriel, I found it by googling Rod's name. It was the Lungevity memorial thingy!! Barbb

how to find that website where you can "light a candle" in memory of someone? Barbb

Happy Birthday, Well Done Young Lady Barb

Gosh, I missed this one too. SO Glad that's all it is. My dad has "divertic" as he calls it, he controls it easily but misses the strawberries. YAY Carol. Barb PS how are you doing by now?

I haven't read anyone else being in Denial as much as Rod and I were. When I think back to how I "let" him drive and go to work on those narcotic drugs I just shudder. God truly had His hand on Rod. It seemed he was "OK" if he was still going to work, and he didn't want to take a leave. It was probably when we called in Hospice that the truth was seen. Rod was on atavan and after I gave it to him, I would like my fingers because they got so sticky! The nurse told me to stop doing that, it was never enough to help me so I too was very grateful for the XANAX, my drug of choice The words that I kept repeating are, "It is what it is", thanks Katie B. I still use them. Hang in Kimberly, you are doing great . Barbb

Michelle, You are amazing! You have so much on your plate but I still saw your sense of humor in some posts My husband would never ask for help and didn't want me to have to help. When I had to shave his face for him, he apologized to me. That was sad. I hope you can find a way to get out of the house now and then. Even tho I was able to be away some evenings, I couldn't wait to get back home to be sure he was ok. I understand when you say there isn't anywhere you'd rather be than with him, totally understand. My best for your best, Barb

Michelle That is really good news, I'm very happy for you to have found this service. Re: the cam-get a big thick towel and keep it handy to throw over it!!! Barb

Thanks guys, it's nice to know you are all out there and giving me your thoughts and feelings really helps. Barb

I am so happy for you and all your beautiful girls. Barb

You people amaze me with your strength and willpower. Even with the patches and gum, that has got to be one of the hardest things you have ever done. My husband smoked up until the day Hospice came and he was too medicated to smoke. Our daughter smoked for 10 years, to almost 28 yrs. old, and quit when she found out about her dad's cancer. She did it cold turkey with a lot of support from her wonderful boyfriend. She wanted to cheat but he wouldn't let her. I will always love him for that. Barb

Don't you wonder if you'll ever stop hurting? I was looking through the Chevy pickup manual today since it needs an oil change and I was just curious about some settings. That brought on so much physical/emotional pain. Rod should be here. It is a gorgeous evening, windows open, sunshine and he would have been outside working in the yard or his shed or whatever...changing the oil in his pickup I miss that man so much. I think it will break my heart. Barb

Thanks Patti! I hoped you would like it. Those geraniums are "yours" Some plants are too small to see around the edges, they are native Nebraska grasses, just gorgeous when they get bigger, but not the huge over 4 foot tall kind. Barb

Thanks Randy This is the "Love Garden" formerly known as the "Rod Garden" I started last summer. I decided it should be for all of us, fighters, caregivers, survivors and those of us who have lost our most loved and are making lives for ourselves, something I didn't know if I could do. And of course my most precious friend, Kasey. Barbb