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This is excellent! Congrats Barb

Victor

Not doing so well here. I'm so addicted to pop. To those of you dropping weight WEIGH TO GO (hee hee) Barb

Teri, I'm so glad you had a wonderful visit with your family. I find my really low times come after my loved ones go home. The next day is just awful. I'm so sorry for all of us having this pain. Barb

Teri, I'm so glad you had a wonderful visit with your family. I find my really low times come after my loved ones go home. The next day is just awful. I'm so sorry for all of us having this pain. Barb

I am so very sorry for you and your family. Barb

Xerus inauris (African giant squirrel) Hey, I remember this game from last year when I also cheated by searching on Google Barb

Kennel worker

Locust or as we called them when we moved to Nebr. "buzz bugs"

I'm in, today I shopped for a swim suit for a cruise next year, oh how depressing, came home with an Allan Jackson CD though:? My downfall is pop.... Barbb

{{{{Lynn and son}}} My heart goes out to you, I'm so glad you have each other. God be with you. Barb

David, Enjoy that vacation, you deserve it Barb

all of you

Debbie, I so totally understand what you are saying. I feel I am still married. I wear my rings and don't plan to take them off. The lonliness I feel is only for Rod to be here, no one else can take that feeling away. As far as our purpose in life, God will lead us to that. Your loss is so new, please give yourself time to see where He wants you to be. I'm still waiting. Barb

This week was "different" and I don't understand how I feel, our daughter, Lacy age 28, and I loaded the pickup 3 times with scrap metal to sell. We were glad it was the "pack rat" stuff that we never saw Rod using so it wasn't so painful. While we did this work and drove the 40 mile round trip three times to the scrap metal buyer she talked about her dad, how she felt and what her fears were. I told her he said he didn't want to die but he didn't want to live with the terrible pain he endured. That helped her. Other things I had told her she hadn't absorbed in her grief so there was some comfort for her this week. Last night and today I put up some pleated blinds in three windows... finally privacy Rod gave me such a gift, he showed me how to do things and how to use the tools. I did break a drill bit, but the next size down worked. He let me struggle with putting up some curtains a couple years ago. He said he thought about helping me but I needed to feel confident. Today, it feels like he knew something. I hope not. To all of us hurting and so lonely for our loved ones, may we find more peaceful moments this next week. Barb

Deb, I am so sad you have to go through this pain, as you've been told, take it easy on yourself, you will be on this rollercoaster for awhile. It is a comfort that our loved ones are out of pain, now ours really begins. My heart to yours, (((Deb))) Barb

" And for the first time when we say, "a year ago..." Bill won't have been here. That's hard." Teri, I hadn't thought of that before reading your post. I'm glad to hear you made it through the dinner, and that your guests had stories to tell. That must have been comforting. Here's hoping this next year is gentler for you. Barb PS my son shares a birthday with a very much loved man July 17th he turned 26

Linda, I'm so sorry for your loss. I love what you said-- "I know there was a party in heaven at the moment of her arrival and that is the way I choose to remember her. " That is a great way to remember her, lots of our loved ones there to love her now. Barb

THAT was FUNNY

It is so sad to read this. My husband's onc had to tell him the same thing, he was too sick for more treatment. Talk to her Dr. so he knows the Xanax is not helping, there are so many other prescription RXs out there. Maybe she needs some other kind. I hope she can find some calm in this time. Barb

May she rest gently in the arms of Jesus and may he hold us up as we grieve and pray with you. Barb

PRECIOUS & BEAUTIFUL!!! I've been thinking about you two and your baby, so glad you posted the new picture Thank you for the smile today. Barb

{{{{{Christine}}}}} Why doesn't this sorrow just end? I hate the why as much as the cancer. I wish we could run away from it just for awhile Love you, Barb

Rod was so like your dad, Katie. He showed love and also told us he loved us. We didn't talk about if/when he would die. We were so deeply in denial, I worked at denial toward the end tho, I knew deep inside after visiting the boards and "studying" LC that he was awful sick and I would lose him. He totally believed he would make it. But we were both so shocked when the onc. said "no more chemo". The only things we said pretty much were: Me, "Don't leave me". Rod "I'll try my best not to" , "I'm sorry I did this to you" and "I brought this on myself". He did say he didn't want to live with that kind of pain. When he saw Jesus, or God or Heaven and Jeff and I were with him, what a glorius moment. I do wish we were a couple who could have talked about it. I would but he just wasn't that kind of person. I try to put the questions I had/have away. Barb