jaydlott Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 I have been so caught up in these past 10 months that I have been a LCH Hermit and have not posted in months. My mom who was diagnosed with Stage 4 small cell lung cancer on May 4th, passed away on Feb 15, 05 just 6 hours before her 60th birthday. Throughout these past months I have been responsible with everything from finances, medical, funeral and life in general, but I was not prepared for the finality of my mom leaving. I'm sorry if this is a long post, but I want to share a few stories. I am from CO and lived in CA for 20 years. I love x-mas, snow and holidays. I made 14 trips to CO to care for my mom since she was diagnosed. Each trip I would either miss a thunderstorm or a snow storm. On 2-14 I was making a mad dash to CO becuz hospice had my mom moved to the hopsital bcuz her pain was so bad. I made it in at midnight. She knew I was there, squeezed my hand and tried to open her eyes. My good brother took me to his hotel so I didn't end up sleeping on a couch. On Feb 15 the morning was unlike any I had ever seen. It was the most beautiful day I had ever seen in my life. The snowflakes were bigger and fluffier than ever as if they were hand made from heaven. My mom gave me the snow storm she would always call me and tell me I missed by a day. She picked the day she would go, we were all there by her side. I left my girls at home bcuz I didn't want them to remember grandma so sick, but my 9 year old who sings in a fame program sang Mariah Carey "Hero" for grandma at her talent share day the end of Jan, I recorded it and brought it with me to play for my mom. I put the tape in the tv in her room and we played the last song my mom was to ever hear, her grandaughter singing her hero. She couldn't open her eyes, but a tear went down her cheek. I know she heard. 20 minutes later, she began to pass away. It was hard to watch, but I know she was in a much better place. When we thought she was gone, she forced her eyes open, looked at my sister then turned and look at me and she was gone. Yesterday I was driving to the bank and with all the rain and dark skys i saw a break in the clouds. I could see the blue sky and light shining down as if God was looking down from heaven. I instantly began to think of my mom. I said out loud, "Mom, where are you at"? Not a minute later, the radio station began playing the song Hero. I cried for an hour. I was the most amazing and spiritual moment I have ever experienced. Thank you for listening and God be with everyone who is going through this horrible disease. Julie Aydlott Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Julie, I am very sorry for your loss.Prayers to you for strength and comfort in the coming days. I'm glad your mom was able to send you a sign like that.It is an amazing story and thank you for sharing it with us. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
karen335 Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Julie, Condolences to you and your family. I am sorry to read this news. God is with you to comfort you... God Bless,prayers and hugs, Karen - So. California Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Julie, I am so sorry at the loss of your mom. Your story is beautiful, and you are turly touched by God. May His peace be ever with you. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 I am sorry for your loss but glad you were able to be with your mom. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Very sorry to hear that Julie, Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ellakc2 Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Julie, Iam so sorry for your loss and I know how hard it is. Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 So very sorry, Julie. I am glad that your memories of your mom's passing are filled with peace and you have comfort in knowing that you did all you could to help ease her and love her into eternity. I love that connection story that you shared. That is powerful stuff. I got goosebumps! love, Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Julie, I feel the pain in your post. I, too, know the pain of losing a mother to lung cancer. Sad for me that I, too, have had lung cancer. I am considered living with no evidence of disease. Your mom was so young. I am so sorry. I pray you get over the grief and sorrow. YOu will be in my prayers. Hope you get some more "signs" from her. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail p-m Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Julie I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I also feel your pain in the post. I also felt a lot of mutual love in the post too. It sounds like your mom had a peaceful passing with her family with her. My sincere condolences. Gail P-M Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wendy Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 My heart goes out to you and your's. How beautiful that you mother was able to hear you daughter sing. God bless you, Wendy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Oh, Julie, I am so sorry for this great loss to you, your sister and the rest of your family. I got all choked up reading about the song your daughter sang. How blessed your mother was to hear that right before she passed. And when you told about the song on the radio, oh my, I got goose bumps. What a wonderful, incredibly wonderful, thing to experience. God bless you, Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Praying for you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
richinsdakota Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 So sorry to hear of your loss , but when I go, I hope I can go out like that, with family and memories on my mind. Bless u all and take care...Rich B. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Haylee_38 Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 I am so sorry to read of the loss of your mom. My thoughts are with you and your family. Your story was so very beautiful.Thank you for sharing with us all. Haylee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Hi Julie, Thank you for coming on here and sharing that with us. I have tears rolling down my cheeks. What a beautiful passing she had with all her children there, and to open her eyes at the last minute and looked at you. You are a wonderful daughter and she loved you so much. All these signs are all positive things that she is happy and wants you to know that. And yes, she is in a much better place. She left her physical sick body and her soul lives on through you and the wonderful memories you have of her. You will meet her again when it is your time. She will always be near, if you need her. Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don M Posted March 25, 2005 Share Posted March 25, 2005 Julie: Please accept my condolences. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaydlott Posted March 25, 2005 Author Share Posted March 25, 2005 Thank you all so much for your beautiful replys. I'm crying as I read them. I have never met a nicer group of people and i'm so glad I found this site. It's such a comfort to know that people really do care and we're not all alone. God Bless Julie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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