mamasbabygirl Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Hey guys. I had to come here tonight to let out some emotions I have been having today. Today marks the one year anniversary of my mom's (first) brain surgery-the one that filled ALL OF US with so much hope, fear, anxiety. On January 8, 2006, mom left her house and never returned. None of us ever imagined things would happen the way they did. God how she fought the beast. I have been missing her so very much lately, in a way that just brings me to tears. When she first died, I felt OK, really proud of what she had accomplished and me too. Now, though, after nearly 4 months of no mom, I feel lonely, unguided, unsure of myself and I just plain want my mama to hold me. I hate this beast. I HATE IT!!! I guess the grief is here, in full force. I am so sad and I just need her back with me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 A big cybwer hug and a BIG WARM Blanket for comfort tonite. Prayers for better tomorrow Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindy0519 Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori, WOW...your post speaks directly to my heart. I wish I had words yet the only that come to mind are...you are not alone, I am right there with you. Grief has moved in full time here to. Praying you find peace and comfort soon! Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori-- I so get it. I so get how the feelings change and you just want your Mama to hold you. I am not your Mama, but here is a huge hug: ((((((((Lori))))))))) Here anytime you need to chat--and you can still call anytime too! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Martha02 Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori, I am so sorry. I know how you feel. I am still stunned by my mom been gone after a year. Like my friend said to me, she lost her mom 5 year ago, "I can finally think about her without having my breath taken away, but you will never get over it". Hang in there! Martha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
karenl Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 ((((Lori)))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MomsGirl Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori - my thoughts are with you on this night. Hang in there... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 (((((((((((((((Lori)))))))))))))) Can't think of any words to say right now that might help so I thought some big bear hugs might be better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
michelepal Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 (((Lori))) I'm so sorry for your pain! Michele Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori, we really both turned onto this road almost at the same time. Know I am walking it with you. You aren't alone. I know and wish you never had to endure this. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 (((Lori))), It's sooo hard.. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ma's kid Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Lori, I don't know what to say...but I am glad you posted because I have missed you. Know that I am praying you find some comfort. Gentle hugs Libby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Christine Posted January 11, 2007 Share Posted January 11, 2007 Lori, I am so sorry you're going through this. I too know how you feel. February 9 marks the one-year anniversary of my own mother's brain surgery. Wishing you peace. Christine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted January 12, 2007 Share Posted January 12, 2007 Hey Lori, Sorry for what you are feeling right now. There is just no one else in the world that can take the place of ones Mom.... sad, but so very true. I am thinking of you... Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted January 12, 2007 Share Posted January 12, 2007 .....so sorry, Lori. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Linda661 Posted January 12, 2007 Share Posted January 12, 2007 (((Lori))) I'm so sorry you're in pain right now and I wish I could take it away, but all I can do is be here to listen anytime you need a cyber friend to lean on who's travelling the same loss you are. I'm glad you are posting and letting it out as you can. Jan 6th was my six month marker since my mom passed -- when I get lonely and insecure, I remember that I really do still have mom with me, inside, in everything she taught me about life all those years before the dx battle; it's been helping so far. Take care, Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
karen335 Posted January 14, 2007 Share Posted January 14, 2007 (((Lori,))) I am sorry you are having such a sad time, just try and concentrate on the good memories. Sending you hugs and pray you have better days ahead. I think of you often and say special prayers for you and your family... God Bless, Karen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted January 14, 2007 Share Posted January 14, 2007 Honey, I am so sorry. I was not blessed by a wonderful relationship with a mother who loved children. That has so much to do with all the love and respect and hope I feel with those of you who are loving daughters and sons. Treasure the gift your mom is to you. Share her strength and love so that her family continues to feel her influence and know that what you 2 shared was very very special and will be tangible once again. Love Pat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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