Flowergirlie Posted May 31, 2007 Share Posted May 31, 2007 As time passes, feelings that existed before my dear hubby passed, remain. The one thing that drives me nuts though is that everyone says to me, you are so young, and you will find someone else to hold you and love you and that, quite frankly, is the last thing on my mind right now. Although I miss my hubby profusely, I do not want someone else. I do not feel desperate to fill this emptiness with someone else, I want to mourn the loss of my soulmate, and that is OK. I do not understand why other people want to project possibly their personal loneliness and discontedness onto me. I am not there and maybe will never be. My life focus has completely changed. I am going back to school for nursing. I am going to raise my kids, and take vacations and still do the things that we were all going to do together. People say it is OK to grieve however it seems right to you and then still put you into this grief box. Oh, she is grieving too much and should be doing better or she is not grieving enough and shouldn't be doing so well. But, everyday I get to live with me and I am managing, and we are going to be alright. I like to remind my family and friends that just because I can hold a conversation and function, does NOT mean that I am not suffering DEEPLY, and DOES NOT mean I want or NEED someone else. I am OK but it still hurts and it is going to and every 'regular old thing' I do is like doing it for the first time because he is not right next to me just offering me that extra security with his presence. I will always love him and miss him so much but I do not feel as though I can not go on and do what I am supposed to do...and to get there does not mean I HAVE to have a new person, is that so hard to accept, even if I am so young? Thanks for reading my rant today. Flowergirlie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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