Hi Patty,
I too know how you feel. I have been there and am still there. I just had my 2nd scan since surgery. I was told that something is always going to be there. Most likely scar tissue. I had a nodule to light up in my left lung and it was not cancer, just scar tissue. I still feel scared until I get my test results. Then in about two weeks I start to worry again. I have got to stop doing this. I want to live very badly, but living in fear of death is no way to live. This board helps me with my fears and I hope it helps you also. It is a safe and comforting place to be.
Prayers