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Danielle, sorry you had occassion to find us, but being that you have, welcome. Sounds like your mom if running full steam at this thing. Good for her. There are a lot of fighters here. Best of luck to you, your mom and the rest of your family.

Saw the movie, and there is a quote from Rocky which when I heard it, I though of all of us here. "You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward."

Totally normal. I think you probably did start to grieve earlier. THe worst I was emotionally was during the month she was diagnosed. The weeks that followed mom's passing, I was numb...in a surreal haze. Now it is starting to hit me. I'm functional, just not 100%. Don't feel abnormal for feeling like you aren't where you would expect to be. I find myself emotionally in very different places at different times. Keep us posted if you feel something you didn't expect, I find many folks here have experienced things I have experienced. And it feels good to know I'm "normal".

I think meds are good, particularly if you are REALLY having a tough time. But also know, this is normal. I'm snippy, less of a fun outgoing person than I used to be. It will pass. We'll always miss our loved ones. I often feel like a donut...big hole in the middle. But we shouldn't throw the donut out because it has a hole in the middle. I am also not suggesting we eat our selves...that's the bad thing about the donut analogy...the hole makes sense, but it's hard getting the rest of the way there. Either way, don't be hard on your self. You are seeking help and will keep moving forward.

I am bittersweet about 07...06 was the worst year of my life but the first 8 months I had what I perceived as a healthy mother. So 06 gets a bad rap. 07 will be the first year I am without my Mom from pillar to post. So although I have hopes for 07...there is still 2/3s of 06 which were worth holding onto.

Donna, you too. Here's to a healthy and happier 07.

Trish, I'm very sorry. My mom did not tell certain people, and was making plans for the future too. I'm glad she lived that way..."every day like it was her first" she said...not her last. I think I hurt a little more because she lived that way, because the future didn't come. But she hurt less because she lived that way...and that makes it worth it. God bless, and again, so sorry.

Hey Pat, I'm glad to hear you experiencing laughter. You deserve that kind of joy! I too am always amazed at what comes from people's mouths at gatherings .

Hi Alicia, sorry you had occassion to find us, but now that you are here, welcome. We'll do our best to be a source of info and support for ya.

Generally, chest x-rays suck. They don't work (15% of the time they do) but they stink at finding early stage lung cancer.

I understand the intense feelings of doom. Doctors are in the loop and you are vigiliant...plenty of hope there!

So sorry for all this...I hope hospice comes up with a solution which is as good a solution as possible.

Welcome and I am sorry. I too lost mom in one month from Dx. It is very hard for me to still accept she was sick...much less gone. I loved mom, too.

Heather, welcome and congrats on all the progress.

Hoping based on the timeline, that you time to travel is here or near and that you are getting to spend the time you need. Please let us know how it goes.

I had a co worker here. I sent her the link. I did the same with a friend. I don't believe they signed up or posted...but I think that's the beginning and the the end of my role (until they bring it up). I think this forum works for a lot of people, some know they would not benefit and thus steer clear.

Hope you're already successfully through the day and that everything went well. Continued prayers for you.

I think we all tried our best and are all feeling a bit beat up in these post Christmas days.

Whoa! Don't beat yourself up. I haven't posted my Christmas experience here, I may as it might help others to see they are not alone, but I haven't been ready to even look back on the misery that was this Christmas. That said, no one could have expected more form us. It was by far the worst Christmas ever (sorry Jesus). You feel how you feel and should not be expected to be any other way. I'll post what this Christmas was like later...as I think it will help me and maybe others could relate. But PLEASE don't be hard on yourself. because I KNOW how you felt...and I know you couldn't help but feel how you did. I get it.

Very cool.

Damn it. So sorry. This is truly sad to hear.

Very nice. That is fantastic and encouraging.

Flo welcome and prayers for you and your husband.

excellent

Gwen, I know how hard this must be, but take comfort that he has peace and comfort and is ready. It may in some ways make things easier for him. I know this does not take away one ounce of your hurt though. I can't put into words how sorry I am .