Gail, You anger and frustration is WHY this caregiver/family member board exists! We all get angry and frustrasted and need a place to vent. You are not evil for having these feeling and neither are you alone.
And who knows why Hank got LC? My mom didn't smoke, she exercised, ate healthy foods and has it too. It's a crap shoot and Hank could have done everything right and still gotten it. He doesn't deserve it anymore than anyone else. You don't deserve it either, but it is what it is (a new phrase we all learned in this battle).
At any rate come here when you need to vent--we all understand!
Susan