(((Maryanne & Joel)))),
I empathize and I sympathize. It hurts and it will most likely hurt a long time. Our pets love us so unconditionally. I don't know how to answer your questions because I grieved a lot over the loss of my pets, but I can't compare it to that of humans, certainly not to the loss of my husand. It was just hard and I still miss my Golden Retriever , Ginger , even after 10 years. Many hugs to the two of you on this very very painful and difficult day.
Love & understanding,
Sue